Wilbur speaks....

all was well these couple of years but u had to return and invoke the part of me that was dormant all these while... the way i think now has nothing to do with anyone but the experiences i went thru these couple of years... i have kept quiet all these while just to prevent things from turning ugly but you had to disrupt the balance and now my peace-loving self now wants to take a backseat and send forth my justice self to take over... matters will turn ugly for justice to prevail but if you keep pushing you leave me with no choice...
the talk we had recently made me feel that u still care but no one will believe that u still do or that it was sincere as they werent present, its hard for me to convince them as i know they have my interest at heart... i cant only tell them to trust me no matter what decision i make... i just need their support... i may make the wrong decision but i just dont want pple to get hurt and that includes you...
i agree to take over all that is owing though to it may seem unfair to others because i dont want things to turn out ugly ... money to me is just a mean of basic survival but other than that it is nothing more to me... so even it's unfair in the eyes of others as long as u are appease it doesnt matter where the scale tips...
i guess now its a wait n see... i dont appear as gullible now then when u knew me back then cos life was simple last time and there was no necessity or reason for me to bring up my act... but you dont seem to get all these... you mind is still naive that u are willing to fall prey to those that others despise... i dont know how to make u realise your folly other then subtle reminders and by prayer... i guess both of us are wary of each other cos the pple beside us are telling us not to trust or believe each other... but after the talk, something tells me tt u are sincere... i hope u find tt wif me too...

Wilbur - Sex Guru?

revelation when i was travelling in a cab...
the male anatomy can be liken to a key whilst the female sexual organ, a keyhole... finding the right key may not always be easy but once the key fits... it's hello, heaven! *hysterical laughter* ...

seriously, i find physical intimacy very important between couples... you may not always get along wif each other outside the bedroom but if both derived extreme pleasure in bed then it can keep the relationship going strong... gals should try to loosen up and not be a prude... blame it on our culture or upbringing that sex is not to be enjoyed but merely as a mean to pro-create... i know some gals will cringe when they see porn cos they find certain acts disgusting, erm, you can say bye bye to a long lasting rel'ship esp if your guy is a full blooded male... women who are willing to loose all their inhibitions will have the last laugh...

human beings are such that we are attracted to those who we perceive as good looking and if our partner is both gorgeous and a pleasure in bed, we tend to want the rel'ship to keep going even though sometimes the partner may not have the best of character... maybe that's y some gals hold on to a rel'ship though the guys are jerks =p ...

my advice to the females "dont shy, dont shy" ... and make sure you maintain your figure and appearance as when you guys 1st met... you have to make an effort esp if you really love him... dont trust when he says i love you no matter how u look... it's like him telling u that u r not fat... so please, make an effort to look good and please your man (of course he has to do the same for you lah)... doesnt matter that we are in the 20th century, you gotta be are smart enough to play the game to engage your man :) ... of course assuming that all other factors remain constant *lol*

have been there, done that *winks*

Wilbur is joyous!!!

david cook is the new american idol!!! woo hooo!! cant wait for his cd to be out... it will be the 1st time ever i actually buy an idol cd man... cook is really talented beyond words thus deserves to win...

Wilbur's Adventures!

never once had i experience so many emotions and encounters over one weekend... u know how sometimes things are all peaceful and tranquil and then WHAM! BAM! bad news comes and spoils the peace and you aint sure when the turmoil will end??!!! that's what is happening to me now... looks like my past caught up with me and i have to bear with a whole lot of inconveniences which i dunno will last till when... its frustrating to know that the rights that i have been doing to correct the wrong i did in the past is being ignored... aarrrrggghhh... bloodie idiot!!!

i dont blame all these incidents on God, really!... i'm really thankful to have dragon boy by my side and for being so understanding that i really have to pinch myself everytime to make sure that i'm not dreaming... things are gg pretty well wif us and i'm grateful to the heavens for letting me experience wat is love and to be loved... it was not all smooth sailing but at least now it is and it can help counter the bad patch tt i'm gg thru, if not i wld just crumble faster than u can say bread crumbs...

btw, the mrt trail was fun though i was not out field in action but in the room sms-ing away for like 3 hrs... saw the goondu side of some pple, cant believe them leh!!! gabra and blur... how can we trust them to serve the people???!! *slaps forehead* ... good grief! anyway, sat was a super rush and busy day... travelled here, there and everywhere... bought birthday pressie and cake for dragon boy at parkway at the end of the day... the 'butch' at inqbox was super nice and helpful... she si bei stylo leh, got tattoo on her whole hand... she helped me with choosing the cuff links =)

felt a tad bit upset that dragon boy did not have a great birthday, he nearly got into an accident and we din do well at prawning also =p not to mention that i had to drop the bad news on him... but luckily things looked up a bit yesterday all except prawning cos we only caught 2 and dinner at ikea cos it was freaking packed and pple were sooooooo selfish and horrible!! got into a bit of action while on our way home... encountered a dumb ass and his sidekick, we are hoping tat we can teach them a great big lesson they are dying for... dont blame ask cos they are really asking for it man... stupid f*s... or u gen them till they foam in their mouth... dont know that we are actually older than we look... tsk tsk...

Wilbur's getting out of the sty

working in the same office for the past 10 plus years, there are of course times when i made an attempt to leave but of course it never materalised... either cos i was not ready to change to a new environment, pay cut or the job itself was not appealing... seems like many excuses hahaha... at each point in time i wanted to leave, it din feel right... i recalled last year i so much wanted to quit after a baseless scolding session from voldemort but eventually decided against it cos i din want to leave ivy and SH in the lurch as renovations was undergoing... i always feel obligated towards ivy as i know the amount of pressure put on her and the kind of shit she takes in for us... good begets good so i have been putting on hold my leaving as i know i can still be of help to pple like SH and ivy in bid to lessen their load... these are the kind of support amongst some of us in office and always pulls me to con't to stay on... like yest, SH, Ee, YQ and myself were the only ones left in office and we all started chatting and laughing... it's a warm and nice feeling knowing that we can all just happily chat on topics such as marriage etc when we dont usu work together let alone eat lunch together...

lately i have this sense of feeling that its time to take my leave... there have been major changes to the org chart... ivy's no longer handling operations... which seems to be the right time for me... never once have i thot of my farewell words to voldermort and ivy but it came to me a couple of days back... i have learned alot all these years and these experiences have enriched my life in one way or another, i never felt any regret joining this office... it provided me what education alone cannot do... the new pple nowadays all come with a dont like, then quit attitude, which is sadly why they don't pick-up skills that cannot be taught but comes with experience... i'm not one who praises oneself but there are times when i find that i can handle situations better than some of those with higher education but the sad thing is that i'm not paid according to how i use my brain... which is why i'm still very bitter abt J... the disparity in income in comparison to the amount of work and thinking she puts in really tips the scale so much that it looks like it can never be set right... as a librian, such injustice all the more drives me to wanna get out...

Wilbur's Journey to the West ;)

calm piggy travelled with fiery dragon to the west today *chuckles*... it's been ages since we travelled out of the laid back east nest *grins*... visited qian hu fish farm, stopped by a couple of other fish farms and vegetation farms and then to farmart... the weather was great today as it wasnt hot and humid like the past weekends... even at 12pm, though there was sunlight, the air was cool and breezy while we were at east coast with the 2 monkeys i.e. clover n winter haha... i din even perspire while walking the dogs! btw we drove to east coast actually cos we wanted to lunch at carl's jr and we didnt want to tire the doggies out hahaha (guess that might come as a lame excuse, we just have to admit that we were lazy lah *lol*)... we has thot that we could eat at carl's jr (the free flow of salsa sauce and freshly chopped onions is what entices us to eat there :)) with the doggies if we set outside (alfresco) but no lor, they had a no pets allowed sign, it sucks man... looks like only kenny is accommodating to dog owners =p ... in the end we decided ta pao from carl's... carl's was super busy today man, waited for some time for my order to be ready, but no matter cos' it was amusing seeing the supervisor yelling and chasing the kitchen in a subtle gordon ramsey style... speaking of which, i adore gordon for his profanities and sarcasm in hell's kitchen...

while i got back to the car where dragon was waiting with the monkeys, dragon boy was flipping thru the street directory to check how to get to farmart but he could not find farmart in the directory... girls, this is where u might like to pay attention *smiles*... i offered in a non-insisting manner to look it up in the street directory but of course guys sometimes think that we gals suck at such things so he just con't to flip thru the directory, i din press on *impt to note* and flipped thru the sunday times to read instead :) after a couple of minutes, i subtly offered again and this time he relented but of course he had to start driving when he passed me the directory (did i mention that i might suffer from giddiness when i read in moving vehicles??), oh well, in the end i found it kekeke *gals,10, guys, 0* not because gals are smarter but rather we are more patient and detailed... i actually went thru all the categories when i found it :)

btw, was impressed with qian hu cos they have expanded quite extensively since i last visited the place a couple of years back... their farm was totally neat, clean and dry which is not like what the usual old traditional fish farms are like... they had a wide wide wide array of fresh water fishes and what truly touched me was that there are some fishes with major deformities (like the arowna i saw with seriously bended body) but they con't to rear the fishes and did not put them up for sale (there were not for sale signs next to these fishes)... i wld think that some others might just kill them just because it's practical to do so esp when you are running a business... Buddha would be so proud of them cos its really practising his teachings of not killing any life... they really earn my respect and admiration... 100 brownie pts from me =) oh yeah, dragon boy asked me whether i wanted to try the fish cleansing feet treatment which was available but after seeing tons of pple sharing the same pond where little dumb fishies will nibble at their feets to rid of the dead skin cells, i decided not too liao... eh! a bit unhygienic rite??!! *eeewwwww*

at the vegetation farm, there was like a mini mini market that sold fresh fruits and vegetables, not a whole lot of variety though but it was damn bloodie cheap wor! i bought like 5 or 6 pieces of jap sweet potatoes (heh, eating one rite now after i boiled it) and 2 reasonable sized carrots at total price of $2.40! unbelievable man!!

most pple at the farms which i seen today are so un-tainted wif the material aspects of life (other then qian hu lah) ...they seem to earn just enough for a simple livelihood... i wish i could be like them... some of them stay in those single storey houses like the ones u see in m'sia with stray dogs as their pets... simple way of life that was brought about with the absence of education... such irony... here i am with an education but it brings about much work stress and it somehow made me to want material things... doesnt education sound like the forbidden apple which eve ate? if we didnt take it then, we should not have to suffer all these depression that work and life brings cos we wont know and understand too much... but alas, most of us in society are suffering... *hangs head*

sometimes gg to such ulu places bothers me cos i see alot of strays... its ok if they are fed but there seems to be some who have scour for food... my heart breaks each time i witness such scenes... that's y dragon boy would pull me away cos i will literally break down and tear... i feel so hapless... sometimes i rather they be put to sleep so they wont have to go through such a hard suffering life... it isnt fair to them... they get no help not like us humans... spca cant do much as well cos they dont have the resources (money, manpower and space) to do so... *hangs head low*

last stop at the west was farmart, nothing interesting really other than a prawning site... also i witness a husky being barricade and chained outside a pet shop... it was howling lor... so poorthing, was pissed that the pet shop didnt put it in the shop where there was air condition cos there wasnt much air outside!!! my darlings dont get air con but got fan hor... and my place is pretty cool... freaking idiot pet shop!!!

we went to AMK hub's NTUC to get groceries and boy was it crowded!!! it's like these pple have news that Armageddon is coming during the week and are stocking up... geeze... i hate crowds! esp when majority of them all have cow sense and jam up the place with their trolleys... arrrghhh...

time to hand my washing... to all a very good morning hahahaha cos its like 1am liao =)

Wilbur's Discernment

sf used to joke about being colleagues and frens... in mock anger she would always asked 'colleague or friend?' when we irritated her =) ... i kinda missed those times when sf, huat, xj were in office... they the 1st seriously fun and nice batch of accountants i have come across all these years... u cant even believe tt they are from ntu! they are really not your typical quiet sort of accountants... all that is left of their batch is SH... he is seriously super nice tt i have no qualms helping him no matter how busy i am... recently i kinda missed his presence in office... very much so yest... before u think tt i'm infatuated with him, i'm not!... i miss him as a fren...other than ivy and a few others whom i frequently bitch to in office, SH is the only one who i guess i can just open up to alot and really pepper my conversations with him with plenty of vulgarities =) ...

an incident yest revealed that really, there is a difference between those whom are real frens and just colleagues at work... a fren at work would offer to help u when they sense that you are stressed whilst a colleague would just be oblivious to the fact that u r so busy (although you explicitly tell them) and still not offer to do something which they are suppose to do in the 1st place...i was asked to offer suggestions for a birthday gift for c to give her on fri i.e tmr, of which i did and even provided the catalogue to f and p, later i was asked whether i could buy the gift but i said i was busy and suggested j to buy, j could not find the item online and p asked me how, i was super frustrated cos i would expect j to think of an alternative so i said tt i would buy ...f, p, and j all left by 630pm... would u fill totally upset if u were me? dont they think i dont want to leave early as well??!! but i have work and tons of email and now had to even get c's present!!! i left office at 11pm and din manage to get c's present until just now when i had the mind and time to browse thru the web... p, f and j is kinda closer to c but yet looks who is getting the gift??!!! still am disappointed and upset... i hate the fact tt i cant just be evil and not get the gift at all...

all these incidences have repercussions... so what if you observe religious practices?, it sometimes doesnt make u a better person, that's why like gil grissom i only believe in God and not religion... p and j are catholics but still the basic teachings of offering help to those in need are absent from their minds... p may be still young and sheltered so i may be quick to judge but j should display the behaviour of a catholic! j has been putting off some of the tasks that she is suppose to do for the past few months, it doesnt matter if she is the one solely getting the blame but she should know that she would get v i trouble as well...
some religions are just pulling pple in without giving pple time to think whether they ready to take on the roles and responsibility of being in the religion... for me, i dont think tt i'm ready, my shortcomings are still quite dominant but i take pride that i try my very best to be very aware of the pple and surroundings around me... i'm not perfect as i will still be mean to those i dislike but i will still be considerate like helping pple at work whenever i can, helping strangers pick up items they have dropped or standing aside for pple to walk ahead, thanking profusely for pple who hold the lift doors for me etc..
pple should only commit to a religion only when stop being selfish and can pray for others well-being as well... i wld think some pple just pray for themselves and not others ...

pets can be so much better than some humans i have encountered... they show gratitude back ...

sometimes work seems heavy but as long as you have frens at work, it helps to ease the stress and make life better...
if the pple i mentioned happen to read this blog, know that i'm not trying to make enemies but at least u should know why i'm pissed...