A tip from Wilbur

i tend to throw away bread cos can t finish them even though i buy those sunshine half loaves... decided to buy tortilla wraps instead as those can be stored and have a longer shelf life, besides, it saves me the trouble of having to go down to the mama shop when i need bread lol... yes, i'm that lazy and i look ghastly when at home so when i need to get out, i have to like do alot, like washing face etc =p it's not cheap the wraps but at least i dont waste food :p

Wilbur takes a different route

Yest was a freaking busy day and today might be as well... laundry, hang clothes, fold clothes, email to UK consular for renunciation of citizenship, go to AUPE to pay for subscription to claim for hospital fees, return plate and tray to Pattaya Garden, clean hamster cages, upload photos onto webbie store, ask about idea book where all the freaking stores in SG dont carry, buy soap holder, find ribbon sash, go for massage, talk to honey, play with dogs, pluck brows, pit hair, leg hair... the list goes on and on...

so for those of you still living with parents, be thankful you dont have to worry abt getting groceries and laundry and all.... mummy dearest is always around to help (yes, it comes with nagging always but it sometimes beats having to do things all by yourself :)) so understand that i do not have time and patience for frivolous things, i prioritise what's impt there and then cos there are simply many things to juggle! i appreciate frens who understand and not get upset over the more minor of things like not replying to sms etc, so those of know who know me well, to out it bluntly i kinda live by "take it, or leave it"... those who wanna pick and be upset over the smallest of things, i cant be bothered cos like i said before, there are much more to life than these... it only proves you are narrow minded and have not seen the world... trapped in your own little world while you think you know it all just makes you irksome... i value friendship a great deal, some of you experienced it, i can just drop everything and help you cos i know u truly need it... so if i come across as heartless or 'hard' (not literally hor! cos me still female lol) to you, hmmm... it's time to check on yourself and understand that both our priorities are different... i'm open to criticisms if i know they come from pple who mean well, u can tell me straight in the face and i would take it, may be upset but i welcome it cos i want to improve to be a better person to those i love and care... i like to be forward with pple and i will suffocate if i'm unable to communicate my thots or feelings to pple who i know cannot take straight up and will get upset over the simplest of things... pauline, u will understand this cos i bitched 2 u abt this before *grins*...

there are those who constantly complain busy and all and i mean constantly and always pull a long face but like the boy who cried wolf, pple can see through their actions and then not bother after a while... okay here's comes my heartless retort: "get used to it!"

i went to causeway mall yest and i stood throughout in the bus journey from my place to there... there were empty seats but decided to stand and take a good look at the surroundings... each journey i see something new, sometimes i guess it's good to take a different route just for the experience cos we only live once :)

Wilbur on a Sunday...

attended xiuzhen's wedding dinner yest nite at this chinese restaurant on the 6th level of UIC building... food was good and the service wasnt too bad... i din realise it was a tung lok restaurant till after like the 5 or 6 dish when i saw the wrapper on the toothpick... pretty duh of me rite *grins* the waitress serving us was an auntie so she was pretty fast and efficient as compared to the other weddings i have attended where we are usu served by young men who seem to be really clueless when it comes to serving... can forgive if the young thing (doesnt matter if boy or gal) is eye candy *guffaws* but usu not the case heh...

how good was the auntie? well, our drinks were topped up promptly and correctly without once having to ask! so u can imagine how many glasses of red wine i had last nite! =) not that i'm complaining lor *grins*... btw, think i'm holding up my liquor pretty well nowadays... dont get high that easily though am drinking more than the normal i used to drink... must be the age thing *bleah* ...u know the saying, one gets better to age lol... applies to my *ahem* other stuff too ;)

back to the auntie... she cleared the dishes promptly and if there were left overs, she transferred them to a smaller plate and put them back on the table... (at 1st when she removed the dish with the leftovers, she din say anything so both me n sh wanted to chide her for not asking but lucky we held back for she came back with the leftovers in a jiffy!)

saw teck lan and kim lan at the dinner as well... they look good esp teck lan, teased tt she looked more and more like an obasan :)

weiren gave me a lift to his cafe so that i could take 48 back home... i met his one of his young waitress and i immediately took in to her... not that my dormant gay side is emerging but she had the kind of face and attitude that made me miss not having a kid sister... back in school, i liked taking care of those younger than me, guess me being so young then i mistook this side of me as having lesbian tendencies... but over the years i realised that it might be due i was always the only kid at home so i longed for companion to be able to shower love, concern and attention... i think jiawen was the only in school back then that i treated her so much like a younger sis that pple thot we were lovers *...* ... we rarely keep in contact now but she still has problematic when it comes to relationship, silly gal *affectionate suaning*...
somehow i can picture myself gg shopping with her (cant remember her name at this moment lol) and giving her advice, looking out for her like a big sis would *shrugs* ... yes, i'm strange but if you lived how i had and is a libra maybe you would feel the same too :)

last fri, we had dinner at bt batok botak jones after the exchange and bowling... kangwei, kengho, wq, pauline, ngian chao, ng yong, alicia, shufen, ck and me... pretty unusual mix but it goes to show why sometimes i like the office, we are not usual lunch buddies or that close in office for that matter but yet we could click and have a nice talking cock session, ex and new colleagues and all... no pretences whatsoever :) btw, alicia and sf were close frens in jc and were in hockey together... small world eh...

gotta shower in a couple of mins... gg to lichoo's house to see her month old pride n joy... i'm not v good with babies, hope Sarabelle doesnt freaked at the sight of me =p many errands to run after that... feel like gg to see some french country furniture... have been thinking of revamping me home for the longest time but shall see, shall see, cos of the 2 monkeys at home so cant get too delicate stuff as well but i think french or english country decor would go well with them hahahaha =D ...

oh yah, need to get the idea book by fredrik haren the swed who gave that entertaining and fabulous talk on creativity during exchange... totally awesome cos he was brutally frank... how good was he? i actually took notes for the 1st time in history during exchange!!!! need i say more?!

Wilbur's Recommended Read...

special thanks to Tee for sending me this brilliant article...

By Dr Lee Wei Ling

I was born and bred in Singapore. This is my home, to which I am tied
by family and friends. Yet many Singaporeans find me eccentric, though
most are too polite to verbalise it. I only realised how eccentric I
am when one friend pointed out to me why I could not use my own
yardstick to judge others.

I dislike intensely the elitist attitude of some in our upper
socio-economic class. I have been accused of reverse snobbery because

I tend to avoid the wealthy who flaunt their wealth ostentatiously or
do not help the less fortunate members of our society.

I treat all people I meet as equals, be it a truck driver friend or a
patient and friend who belongs to the richest family in Singapore.

I appraise people not by their usefulness to me but by their character.

I favour those with integrity, compassion and courage. I feel too many
among us place inordinate emphasis on academic performance, job status,
appearance and presentation.

I am a doctor and director of the smallest public sector hospital in
Singapore, the National Neuroscience Institute (NNI). I have 300
staff, of whom 100 are doctors. I emphasise to my doctors that they
must do their best for every patient regardless of paying status.

I also appraise my doctors on how well they care for our patients, not
by how much money they bring in for NNI. My doctors know I have friends
who are likely to come in as subsidised patients. I warn them that if
I find them not treating any subsidised patient well, their appraisal -
and hence bonus and annual salary increments - would be negatively
affected. My doctors know I will do as I say.

I remind them that the purpose of our existence and the measure of our
success is how well we care for all our patients - and that this is
the morally correct way to behave and should be the reason why we are
doctors. In NNI , almost all patients are given the best possible
treatment regardless of their paying status..

My preference for egalitarianism extends to how I interact with my
staff. I am director because the organisation needs a reporting
structure. But my staff are encouraged to speak out when they disagree
with me. This tends to be a rarity in several institutions in
Singapore. The fear that one's career path may be negatively affected
is what prevents many people from speaking out. This reflects poorly on
leadership. In many organisations, superiors do not like to be
contradicted by those who work under them. Intellectual arrogance is a
deplorable attitude.

'Listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have
their story,' the Desiderata tells us. It is advice we should all heed
- especially leaders, especially doctors. I speak out when I see
something wrong that no one appears to be trying to correct. Not
infrequently, I try to right the wrong. In doing so, I have stepped on
the sensitive toes of quite a few members of the establishment. As a
result, I have been labelled 'anti-establishment'. Less kind comments
include:

I am indifferent to these untrue criticisms; I report to my
conscience; and I would not be able to face myself if I knew that there
was a wrong that I could have righted but failed to do so.

I have no protective godfather. My father, Minister Mentor Lee Kuan
Yew, would not interfere with any disciplinary measures that might be
meted out to me.

And I am not anti-establishment. I am proud of what Singapore has
achieved. But I am not a mouthpiece of the government. I am capable
of independent thought and I can view problems or issues from a
perspective that others may have overlooked.

A few months ago, I gave a talk on medical ethics to students of our
Graduate Medical School. They sent me a thank-you card with a message
written by each student. One wrote: 'You are a maverick, yet you are
certainly not anti-establishment. You obey the moral law.' Another
wrote: 'Thank you for sharing your perspective with us and being the
voice that not many dare to take.' It would be better for Singapore's
medical fraternity if the young can feel this way about all of us in
positions of authority.

After the Sars epidemic in 2003, the Government began to transform
Singapore into a vibrant city with arts and cultural festivals, and
soon, integrated resorts and night F1. But can we claim to be a
civilised first world country if we do not treat all members of our
society with equal care and dignity? There are other first world
countries where the disparity between the different socio- economic
classes is much more extreme and social snobbery is even worse than in
Singapore. But that is no excuse for Singaporeans not to try harder to
treat each other with dignity and care. After all, both the Bible and
Confucius tell us not to treat others in a way that we ourselves would
not want to be treated. That is a moral precept that many societies
accept in theory, but do not carry out in practice. I wish Singapore
could be an exception in this as it has been in many other areas where
we have surprised others with our success.

The writer is director of the National Neuroscience Institute.

Wilbur's Fav Story of All Time =D

the never ending story of bao vs noodle... Slurp~

Chapter 1
One day, noodle quarrel with meat bao(bun). They had a fight but bao was too clumsy and lost badly. He was very angry and he told noodle to stay behind if he has the guts and he'll get his pals to assist him.Meat bao went to find bread, man tou, jian bao etc to get them to reinforce him. Along the way, they saw maggi mee. They ah bish ah bish ah bish and beat maggi mee up and maggi mee beri puzzled why he kena beaten up.He said, "Why u all beat me? What have I done to deserve this?"The meat bao said, "Noodle! Dun think u perm your hair then cannot recognise u!"

Chapter 2
Maggi mee, who was beaten up for no reason, was very angry. So he went to find bee hoon, udon, fried noodles etc to seek revenge.But on the way, they met small bao. Maggi mee looked at small bao for a while then told his brothers, "Bra-der! Whack him!" Maggi mee whack small bao "harder! harder."After the noodles family has left, they asked Maggi Mee why he hated small bao so much and beat him up so badly.Maggi mee said. "At first wanna teach him a small lesson only, but then see him act cute, made me so angry."

Chapter 3
The more small bao thought of it, the more buay song he was. So, he found the bao family to whack Maggi mee.Then they found ying shi juan (noodles covered with bun). They brought him back as hostage and were about to put him on the stove to force him to talk when the bao head said, "That's not noodles! That's our undercover!"

Chapter 4
The family of bao and noodles are now enemies and they have gang fights whenever they see each other. One day, the noodles family was having a walk when they saw char siew bao alone.Seeing the good chance, all of them attacked him. The noodles family shouted, "Beat him hard hard! Don't give chance just because he's vomiting blood

Chapter 5
Poor char siew bao, with his injuries, went to the bao headquarters to look for help. All the bao family was activated and together with red bean bao, green bean bun etc. they went to seek revenge. All the passerbys siam them as they look like they will kill.They saw french fries jalan jalan along, shopping. The bao family attacked him. The bao head shouted, "Noodle people still wear gold go shopping! Whack him!!!"

Chapter 6
Finally, the bao family manage to kidnap noodle, the one who started up the whole show, and brought him back to the bao headquarter.All the baos took turns to whack him. At the end, the chief of baos - dua bah bao took a final roll over noodle before they dump him.When the poor noodle finally went home, none of the family member could recognise him bcoz he is totally disfigured - flatten. In order not to let the family bear the bad name, he appears as a new member named Mee pok.

Wilbur.Timbre.Gin Tonic.

total 3 glasses of gin tonic for since yest... am i turning into an alcoholic? nah :) just social session with wq yest at timbre... was there again today with wq and keng ho... yest was pretty packed and i guess the reason was cause the band was good... today's crowd was pretty pathetic... the female filipino singer was just so-so... somehow i dont fancy females singing in clubs cos usu they dont get u in the mood like the boys do *shrugs* anyway, it was good to chill and having a basically talk cock session... helps relax the nerves which office tends to tense up :p took some pretty nice shots of fullerton too when heading home with the guys.... she's like the grander old dame compared to raffles hotel... maybe should have a walk in the premises when i get the chance...

yest's set-up for the signing ceremony was a damn rush thing as only one day to plan n set-up but lucky esther and weizhen was ard to provide suggestions and advice and made the event a pretty successful one :) though a bit stressful but i enjoyed the adrenalin rush of getting things in place... so much more certain tt i would maybe do ok as a wedding planner ;p

another day with many things lined up ahead... gotta proritise and take things a step and a time :) must be thankful i have a job :)

Wilbur has caught the flu bug =(

geez, me eyes are puffy, red n sore, have been having frequent bouts of sneezing, my nose is leaking and i'm feeling slightly chilly... me now not a very pretty sight but i guess it's better than when i was in the hospital where i was in no condition to care abt grooming so i looked much worse then *grins*...


got myself a new phone over the weekend cos the old one was a bit cranky (keypad not working well) ... sometimes i hate getting new phone cos i'm not one who is meticulous when it comes to syncing contacts, u know lah, transfer this and that and compare... bleah, so i guess i wont be having some of your contacts kekekeke... so dont mind me if i ask who r u ;p

i traded in the cranky phone for $50 so in the end got my Nokia 6600 Fold for $250... me a nokia fan all these years... even dragon who used to be a Nokia critic is now using Nokia... i tried using fren's phones of other brands and almost pulled my hair out when messaging! i think i never got round to keying in the 1st letter! so y should i make my life difficult?! just use back the same device which i'm already so used to, saves me time and frustrations; wont have to go thru the who process of learning to use the phone :); this kind of time can be better spent =)

i guess this applies to me in life as well... when i'm used to something i like, i will cont using it since it serves me well, never like to change unless absolutely necessary or something happens ie. dragon *grins*


stayed back with WQ and Pauline pretty late last fri, we were working on productivity stuff... by the time we left office was about 10-ish... it may seem sad to be working late on a fri nite but while i cutting through the SRC field to get to my bus stop, i observed that it was a pretty clear nite and the skyline was a pretty sight! hence, i whipped out my cam and took some shots of the supreme ct and the cbd office buildings... have attached one of it below :) truly happy with my captures which would not have been if i had left office earlier... it reminds me that there is always a silver lining to every dark cloud and there are always something good around =) these are the kind of things pple who wallow in self pity fail to see *shakes head* sad, huh! we are not dying in hunger or living in poverty and yet we tend to make our issues bigger than those who have it worst than us... yes, we live in a stressful society but joy should be looked within oneself and not from others... u cant change the environment but u can change your attitude towards it... i diss pple who dont get this...



although being involved in productivity is an extra load, but the benefits is that i'm makin new frens :) it a nice sharing a pizza with the 2 of them and talking crap as a break... also, its where i get to experience pple who r nice and helpful including those from other agencies like soong yin ... of course there are some who seem to be loafers but like gold 90.5fm, i shall only see the good stuff *smiles* ... such interactions may also pave a smoother path in future especially if i really get to be a wedding planner (yeah, still dreaming) :) got to tok to mirza the caterer from pattaya garden... it's interesting to meet new pple and those i can click usu share the same thots =)


i have many varied interests now and i think this is good as i will not easily wallow in depression like a couple of years back... i guess goods things always come out from experiences especially the bad ones... i'm glad i'm able to notice the good things when i look back ... i read some stuff on palm reading and my life is suppose to be trodden with obstacles ie. it will not always be a smooth ride... come to think of it, this may be the very reason that i'm more thankful and aware of the good things :)


i related to some of my frens my encounter with this bloodie idiot 50-ish lady at one of the toa payoh coffeeshop... i had so much wanted to just pour my soup at her and her fren to wake their bloodie idea! it was the 1st time i had to practise so much self restrain! i was heading towards the fish soup stall to order my dinner, there was a lady in front of me and i was next in line... this whole time, the idiot was standing on the opposite side of the queue in a manner like she had already ordered and was waiting for her take-away... the lady stall owner asked for my order and i move to the front of the q... i sought of look at the idiot and i think only then the stall owner realised the idiot's presence and then proceeded to ask for her order... the idiot was english speaking and i helped communicate the idiot's order to the chinese owner as they spent a couple of seconds clarifying the order... the owner thanked me but the idiot did not... which was fine as my intention was to help the owner anyway...the idiot then said this to me:" apparently, the owner does not have any sense of order." i din think much of it n replied:"maybe she didnt see u." anyway, the owner asked me to ask the idiot whether she would like milk added in her soup... again no word of thanks from the idiot but only from the owner but i din care too much as i was tired... both our food came out at the same time and i moved off to find a seat... the idiot and her fren sat nearby and she started dissing the owner for having no sense of order and said that other customers would have been angry and not order from her blah blah blah... she made the owner seemed so rude which was not the case! i tried to block off their conversation, but to no avail as later she went criticising the whole of s'pore and it's pple and it went on and on... my temper was slowly building up and i so wanted to shout at her for being the rude one as she did not even bother to thank me when i helped her placed her order!
some pple really dont look at themselves 1st before condemning others! it's times like this i wished i was a jobless ah lian as i could create a scene without having to bear much consequences! i just wish she was just fall flat on her face and no one is around to help her!

'nuf of that unpleasant reminder ...

i took a smrt bus back that day... so used to calling it trans island lol... i have a love/hate relationship with smrt buses... the drivers usu drive off immediately once the last passengers get his feet up on the bus that it will cause us to lose our balance :P but it's the impatience and absurd speed that makes me get home faster than i can say smrt ;p most smrt bus drivers like got speeding tickets before one lol... since it balance out, no complains from me =)

gotta do some work now... ciao!

Wilbur is tired but happy =)

for the 1st time in my life i was a sister (jie2 mei4) for a wedding... it was tiring but worth it as i was part of a life-changing event for my friend so dear :) though we no longer work in the same office or meet-up often, we still maintain a kind of bond and understanding tt we will always be there for each other... on a few occassions pple mistook us as sisters when we went out kekeke =) we both have kept some things from each other, but when we both found out, there was no unhappiness whatsoever, as it came to a pt where we also know some things are not so easy to say and maybe this is how our friendship became stronger... seeing her walked down the aisle yest, tears welled up in my eyes... i felt so proud n happy for her... it din matter i was running up and down for both her and her hubbie for their wedding dinner preparations yest... i was realli glad to help!

the reward of true friendship what kept me gg all this while, i din mind working behind the scenes as long as my frens could get their work done and get recognition for it or sometimes so that they they dont get into trouble from voldermort :) getting appreciation from them matters more than from the fiery fiend :p as they always say, one good turn deserves another...

sometimes, no matter how bad the environment is, as long as i'm are working there, i have to put personal feelings aside and work for the good of the branch/dept so as to not let other agencies criticise us for not doing a good job... there are many things that cant be taught but learnt through attitude and willingness accept...

Wilbur: "To Clementi, to Clementi to find a fren so Pretty!"

heading to MW's house tonite to sleep over and help her with the preparation for her BIG day tmr *wide smile*... though i'm a bit tired but anything for a truly great fren! i hope i will be alert enuf tmr... gotta bring lotsa stuff over tonite... including my clothes for the morning visits as well as the evening dinner =p ... i havent plan what to wear for the evening dinner... she says i can wear jeans hee, tempting but shall see how cos i need something whereby i need not have to bring extra shoes and all.... so many stuff to plan but me feeling sleepy now =p

past couple of days, some of u may find me being rather harsh be it in my words or actions but its cos i'm so jaded... been in the dept for 11yrs and i have gone thru so many changes, experiences and encounters... people then were generally considerate, pleasant, nice, helpful, fun etc... that's how we have become close frens till today, cos' we all had a common trait - we spared a thot of those around around us and were not too caught up in our own world; we readily offered help even though we were sometimes busy ourselves... colleagues turned frens and pals and it made working in the office bearable cos u had the support and help... its a different environment now... of course there are still people who i consider as frens but the lot whom i consider as colleagues seems to be making themselves more apparent.... it irks when colleagues who constantly make it known that they are busy can leave the office earlier than those who dont or rarely utter a word of complain and the funny thing is tt people they claimed are pushing work to them are staying back much later than they are... i have nothing against pple who leave on the dot as I'm no angel myself but dont make yourself out to be the most miserable when there are others who seem to have it worse than you... its just tt these pple dont express it only... i dont care if colleagues misunderstand me unless they are my frens... frens know me well enough to know i sometimes have a nasty mouth but i will always extend my help to them... the thing abt frens is that we are so comfortable that we can be frank with each other on how we feel and and we will not be sensitive abt it :)

coffee nations is doing well and am so happy for weiren though he seems worn out... tried the choc mousse cake and it was bloodie good! the sausage meal i had was great too... soup was nice and tasty and the beef sausage was soft and easy to eat :)

think i better get some shut eye... got more stocks to post on lovehappydaisies but i think i put it off for now... dont wanna stress myself hee hee =)

see some of u at the wedding tmr :)

Wilbur is angry and upset with Wilbur!

"how can u be so dumb to write that review?! din u think of the impact?! you are always saying u r street smart but apparently it's all bullshit... u din think at all! u criticise others for not thinking or for being dumb but look who turned out to be the biggest ass! i hate u and wish u were not born! what good has ur existence brought to others? nothing much, really!!!"


am very angry and upset with myself... i ought to go into seclusion and reflect on my actions... i wont mind if i suffer the conseqences for my actions but when it comes to my close pals suffering the consequences for my actions i will be terribly upset and angry with myself because i always pride myself in thinking and considering for others... i come down very hard on myself even though what i have done is not intentional and had good intentions to begin with... it's stupidity in the highest form... it feels worse when your close pal doesnt chide or scold u for it... i wish he did but knowing him, it is not his nature to do so even if he feels upset over it, he wld be thinking "wah lao how can she write such tt which i told her in confidence"... i hate myself, i dont know why i din think of the impact or consequences... maybe it's retribution for condemning too many pple, whatever it is, i feel like shit now... i know some of you care enough and would ask me what did i do to warrant such strong feelings but at this pt in time, i dont think i can handle telling some of u abt it... i was chided n lectured by dragon when i told him and i dont think i will be comforted with a patronising "oh, but it should be ok lah since he doesnt blame u"

i'm one who feels very strongly when it comes to disappointing my close pals, they dont deserve this kind of crap from me...


"i owe u and hope i can make up for the wrongs i did..."

Wilbur at an opera?

caught Puccini's Turandot on fri.. it's an italian opera and the settings is based on old peking china... i din think the singing was fantastic as the casts did not seem to inject the emotions required for the audience to feel the characters... yes, they could hit the high notes and all but their cords fail in comparison to josh groban... just by listening to his cd alone can i feel what the song is trying to bring out... anyway, tee told me tt puccini die before completing the opera, which explains why act 3 i.e. the ending, sucks real bad... it become a love conquers all thingy which is too ridiculous and abrupt considering turandot was a cold cold princess all her life... both tee and i felt it should end in a tragedy... the saving grace was ping, pong, pang who brought life to the show... they were funny and had the audience laughing with them :)

i dont mind watching such operas as i used to catch such operas way back on tv12 in my teens... u dont have to understand the language as there are subtitles... i especially like those where the settings is baroque... think white wigs and elaborate victorian dresses... anyway, i thot the esplanade theatre is cool stuff... joked tt i should have brought a pair of old baroque magnifying glasses for the opera *grins* as we set on the circle seats on the 2nd floor...

tics were cheap as those wealthy foundations i.e lee, kong etc sponsored a great deal of $ so that more pple could have a chance to see and experience the arts... if u are one who dont mind the opera, good to go and check it out, there are both english and mandarin subtitles on the 2 screens located at each side of the stage... might take some getting used to focus on the actors on stage and also on the screens but should be able to get the hang of it pretty quick :)

lotsa of caucasians attended and some of the females wore long satin dresses, so damn pretty! anyway, if you dare and can smuggle, bring your own champagne and glasses for drinking at the intervals hahahaha... cos drinks at the bar are not complimentary heh...

Wilbur's Glimmer of Hope :)

my horoscope says:
this week brings the prospect of a major upheaval that much closer, if only cos' its time to say goodbye to a no. of pple and places that no longer have any meaningful role in your life. U r an independent soul by nature, so u should be quite happy to set out on a new adventure, taking life as u find it.

in short, i should maybe buy toto *kekekekeke*

Wilbur the Freelance Helper :)

lichoo called me yest and told me she was giving birth like in a couple of days :) it would be a gal and her chinese name would be siying; i was alright till i heard the christian name... Sabelle... i was like "what?!" i told LC that her kid would most prob hate her when she grew up esp when she is in pri school heh... kids would likely tease her by calling her sa i.e. dumb in mandarin, cant trust a 7 year old to pronunce it correctly okay! so i was task to think of a few names starting with 'S', y 'S'? cos LC's hubbie's name is sebastian, hers is surin, u get the picture ;) but when i heard of the rationale, i was thinking then would it make them a family of 'ASS'es ahahahaha of course i kept my thots to myself ;p ... anyway, discussed wif tee and we came up wif a few french inspired names... suzette, shantay, sarabelle, souffle (lol) and LC said she liked sarabelle and would discussed it wif her family :) ... cool! i quite like the name shantay actually quite unique but i guess if i had a gal, i would most prob call her chante *wide smile*

MW's wedding is round the corner, helping her with some stuff, i really should try my hand at freelancing as a wedding planner, think i wld enjoy cos i love seeing couples happy at weddings :) besides i'm *ahem* resourceful or i wld like to think tt heh...

might be having plans on the way for a short trip to malacca :) hoping to get my nonya stuff there like the beaded shoes and maybe some jewellery?

got a few projects up in my head, hope i will be able to do them in the coming weekend... somehow i think my creative juices are starting to dry up... working in a environment like agd seems to have that effect on me... gosh... very soon my scar wld hurt just like harry's when he is close to voldemort hahaha... feeling drained... i hate dealing with indecisive pple... i feel like throttling them, thankful there arent many like them around else i will definitely be driven mad... say once, say twice is no biggie but say thrice and its strike 3, u r out! cos they will repeatedly go on and on and i will just throw my hands up in the air!

mr sandman is here... gotta go, even the stuff i written today is so dead unlike those time i was at home... bleah... shitty

Wilbur's Captures!

Wilbur the Grinch - New movie coming to you this Monday

in yoda's accent lol:"excited and happy i am for i'm gg to the fireworks celebration at marina bay this evening" =) all thanks to MW who won the tics for me! kam siah zuay zuay hor!!! she super duper nice hor! knowing tt i would like to see the show, she actually took part in the competition her company was conducting and won lor!!! truly blessed with good frens *smiles* i will also always remember the time Dave gave me one whole box of donut factory to me when my msn pm indicated i had a cravings for them... he actually bought 2 one dozen boxes to be shared with his colleagues but offered one box to me without payment... and it was the time when donut factory was still in the rage ie. before all the other donut wannabe outlets came up... truly touched beyond words that he is one hell of a gf! there are many others too who are great pals, u are always in my heart! awwwww....

yest met MW and tee for dinner at holland v... been ages since i stepped into that place! arranged to meet at 730 but left house at 7pm, had no choice but to grab a cab lor, bloodie hell, freaking cost me $20 to get there, sim tia man... but only got myself to blame lah... everytime dilly dally.... bleah.... anyway, initially planned for sushi tei but was crowded so after recceing, we decided to settle for hawker fare :) cheap n good hokkien mee and ou luak... it's been a while since i ate at a hawker centre with frens lol... oh yah, for the ou luak, requested them to fry just the oysters and egg minus the icky gluten... only cos like $6 for a reasonable portion for 2 pple! good stuff man! anway, the best was yet to come lol :) we decided to go for a good dessert and we stopped by Olio near Wala Wala... Olio was pretty empty compared to the rest of the makan establishments... but we took our chances and boy were we rewarded finely!!! tee ordered a brownie while both MW and me shared some pastry with fruits and ice cream thingy... when the brownie came, we were astounded! it was served in a steaming hot plate on wooden base (akin to the one for steaks at jack's place) and when the waitress put in on the table, she immediately poured choc sauce all over the brownie and it sizzled and smoked like crazy with the aroma of the choc slowly creeping into the air =) we were both amused and wowed at the same time... the patrons at the next table were impressed too and we exchanged jokes abt it =) ... they ordered the same thing almost immediately *grins* without even waiting for us to try it :) it was fabulous btw and really, Olio sets itselfs apart from the rest for their ingenuity in serving it this way... the dessert which i had was not too bad too but in terms of impressing sua ku pple like us, the Olio's brownie beat all other desserts (well, maybe not Allen strawberry cheesecake lol) i had hands down ! they should get an olympic medal for it man! perfect 10! i used to be a fan of Dome but i guess i grew out of it when my favourite coffee drink (yes, i could drink coffee before without having a hell of a tummy ache) became too diluted one time for my liking... i used to order their chunky chips which came with 2 types of dips... great snack as well... their logo also nice cos got air of vintage lol .... Olio changes it's food menu every now and then, a good move since there's stiff competition...

gotta shower soon for the wonderful display tonite... i'm trying to keep my spirits up till Monday where i will likely turn green n grouchy =p ... it's pouring now but it's time i can wear my wellies!!! cool! i hope the rain gets lighter when the show is on ekse i will most prob go blind with the raindrops pelting on my eyeballs ahahahahaha... okay maybe not blind, but my pupils will turn from dark brown to black and blue hahahahahaa.... yeah, cold jokes for my amusement only =)

hope i retain my inspiration to make new stuff for Love Happy Daisies... dont wish to stop at one lol... that reminds me, for the 1st time in my life, i actually listened PM's LHL speech from start to end... i enjoyed this rally cos it was peppered with jokes and he made it more light hearted... i have faith in him but not in the system in fully supporting or implementing the policy changes he mentioned....

darn, dunno whether it's the new KC school that they are building but it's blocking some of the nice views I could see previously from my kitchen window... it's not exactly high, but high enough to be an eye sore to me... tee said all buildings in the east should be low, i agree man, but would anyone care? no lor.... sad we are losing our heritage, bye bye to 7th storey hotel pretty soon... watch 'beyond the forbidden city' on national geo, the chinese over there really take pride in preserving the culture, of course they have the manpower lah, but how come we not proud as we should be of our heritage and culture since we are mostly chinese too?

D-day is coming....

my heart is getting heavier knowing that i will very soon return to the most dreaded place on earth... well, according to me anyway... the days away have kind of brought back the spirit which i had lost so long ago... i never had time for myself and the thought of gg back to that life makes me want to act on impulse... it's sad isnt it?

the environment has not moved with the times... it is still stucked in the warped perception where efficiency is not measured based on output by rather the number of hrs you are in office and/or how you look (yeah, can imagine your incredulous look esp if you are not from here) ... i thank ivy (sec sch mate) for letting me see the light... she once left her workplace at 430pm just like that to go to the hairdressers and got chided by me but all it took was one rebut from her "why penalise me for being efficient?" ... which is so damn bloody true *brit accent* ... if you have finished your work and are not causing any misery to others, you shouldnt be subjected to stares and stupid comments from colleagues if u leave work on time... but it's a give n take thing of course... you must be mature and not abuse the trust given nor absolved yourself from responsibility... if there are times you need to work late, then stay... there are some who stay but no output and actually get dumber by the day... this kind better off living in the caves with the fishes cos sama sama species all got the 'duh' look lol

it doesnt help the environment tt some of the new generation now is also a pain in the arse to work with.... they dont take pride in their work and dont understand that the quality of their work is a reflection of their being... there is also no camaraderie amongst colleagues anymore... it's like a mental institution where pple are in their own world and oblivious to pple ard them... this is the same out in the streets as well... couples needing to stick together to board the bus, usu the guy cutting into your queue, just to get near his gal but sometimes, it's not the guy's fault cos the gal would give him the dagger stare for not following close behind... HELLO! a few minutes apart is not like gg to kill your relationship!!! and to the guys, your gal is not some old lady who needs be escorted please... if she is young and able, she must understand that that chivalry towards others is a virtue... you also got dumb assess blocking your paths by walking all over the pavement or when u are looking at something, they could just come in front of you... yes, we are all gg mad...

on a happy note, i did some mini revamped to love happy daisies... feels good to be doing something i like for once... beats having to be obliged or coerced to do something... feel free to take a peek at the new look at http://lovehappydaisies.blogspot.com/ also, i remembered the songs i used to like way back in the 90s and added them to the webbie as well... enjoy!

oh yeah, see my mini revamped to my home loo as well lol... added the creeping leaves and arent the little elves adorable?!

Wilbur may have a new craze!

damn! this wat happens when i explore too much lol... chanced upon a lifelike jap lolita doll which captured my heart... but having one would cost near $700 up to $1k... not too sure why they are so expensive... figured that maybe the material would be the same as that of a ventriloquist doll... trying not to dwell on it too much so i would forget it in time but i guess it's hard to resist... if i really get one, i must hide it away from dragon though cos he would be freaked out as the features are lifelike and we grew up on horror movies portraying dolls as killers etc hahaha but mainly i guess he would check me into a mental facility cos he would not understand how can one pay so much for a doll.... bah...

the name for such dolls as i found out is call super dollfies... they can be dressed in lolita gear and everything can be customised right down to the color of the eyes, lips and even hair to give it its own personality... somehow i think that such dolls may sort of come to life not literally walk etc as in Chucky lol but in spirit if one were to spend time with it etc...

gong gong parrot fish wanted to kill itself... it jumped out of the baby bath tub... i realised cos dragon kaypoh went to feed the fishies but they din have appetite to eat as they are still unwell and most prob the food was decaying and causing the water condition to be bad... i just removed the food and changed the filter sponge... hopefully water condition will improve else must change water again... sometimes hor the other half can be like parents and be a pain in the arse when they start being kaypoh and cause u more work... best thing is that i have to restrain from sounding too accusing else things will sometimes turn ugly... yeah, the tone in my voice sometimes can come out and offend lor =p... bibik genes lah...

Few nite words by Wilbur

my wardrobe is in mess!!! suddenly remembered i had this tee and was looking high and low for it... not easy considering my closet looked like the after effects of a major Fox sale =p ... in the end i decided to take out all the stuff that piled up and fold them nicely back... i dont have enough closet space so now it looks like the beginning of a Fox Sale where eveything mismatched is stacked up nicely... most prob if i need to find something urgently, i would pull the stuff out like what cusotmers do in a Fox shop hahahaa...

my clothes are all over the place and sometimes i put them away so well that i forgot i even have them... i did this to dragon's clothes too =p ... last week he asked where his polo tees were cos suddenly he felt like there was a major shortage kekekeke... they werent in the laundry either... i forgot tt i kept them away the storage box and i still told him tt maybe they could be at his mother's lol... i just found a whole stack of them when i was looking for my baju... i'm so gonna get a earful from him lor.... i think if i have the time n money i would like to redecor my house to one that of a boutique hahaaha so i can find my stuff easily... i think i adopt this habit of keeping stuff from my grandma =p or is it a peranakan thing kekeke...

have to knock myself to sleep soon... i realised tt i becoming nocturnal which is not a good thing... wonder if my great grandma was a vampire from england hence my habit =x hee.... wonder how she looked like cos grandma din seemed to have her pic nor that of her father to show me =(
the eye serum which this sales person at chinatown recommended seems to be working for me or maybe i have enough rest since i'm bounded =p ... whatever it is it's time to punch myself to sleep *boink! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz*

The camera hates Wilbur!

i never really like pictures to be taken of me cos i always find i look weird in pics... face it! the camera hates me lor... there are some pple who will appear so natural in the pics like eugenia, valencia, yuqian, xiangjing that they dont need any effort, for me leh, i need so many takes for just that one pic to look nice =p ... i can so imagine the whole panel of ANTM judges in front of me and all shaking their heads lor and Tyra would go: "you look like a deer caught in headlights, it was very hard to find a good shot in those films blah, blah blah" and she would make the exact deadpan face i have in films so as to demonstrate her point hahahahah =D very vivid imagination hor?! i guess that's what happens when i'm home too long... eugenia jokes that i'm on house arrest =) quite true lor....

anyway, i think i look normal but when i see myself in pics i find many flaws and like got alot of disproportions lor... i think my side preview is nicer than a full front, like the naked body can be obscenely ugly *hangs head*... dragons says i look insane or crazed in pics... yeah he should know... bloodie hell just the other day he sneakily took a shot of my digging for gold nuggets while i was in the loo!!!! nabeh... if i do that to him i'm sure he wont talk to me for couple of days lor... why is it that men are the women now??? must be eat too much soya products lol ... (the article in ST abt soya products makes men produce more oestrogen hormones hence low sperm count *grins*) oh well... this planet is a strange place lah... men have longer eye lashes, usu nicer and slender smooth hands and fingers and they seem to excel in positions where women are suppose to have more experience in i.e. cooks, tailors etc talk abt unfair lol :)

till this day, i like looking at XJ's FB for his pics... all his pics like picture perfect and he looks like a jap model right out of a mag lor... i think he doesnt even need to photoshop them *shakes head* ... good hor ... he can exude that kind of 'say' but in real life he can be quite noisy one lol so unlike the air coolness he portrays in those pics... he is a fun fren to have though ... the other day i was corresponding with him on msn and he got to know of my recent op... that naughty fella started msn-ing jokes to crack me up knowing i couldnt laugh hard cos of my wound ;p ... that's XJ for you :)

aye, today it rained but i no chance to wear my polka dotted wellies out =( ... haiz... today really a gloomy day other then the weather, i felt like tearing my hair out when i checked my office email... dumb, dumb and more dumb... when will my $8million come!!!! i will turn insane like fann wong in the 9 o'clock show if i con't man... i think my family also got history of insanity *hysterical laughter* >=)

Wilbur is smiling...

got a call from SGH today... was almost gg into panic mode when i picked up the call and the lady identified herself and said she was calling for SGH... then she said "thank you for the cupcakes" lol... i almost forgot tt i had arranged for the cupcakes to be delivered to the staff and nurses of ward 53c room 27 today :) .... ordered from Angelz Cups... they have a couple of unique flavoured cupcakes at reasonable prices :) ... i wanted to deliver something to the nurses and staff to thank those who took care of me while i was there as well as to let them know they are not forgotten.... i figured that not many pple would actually show their gratitude to these quiet heroines... this was my note to them which accompanied the cupcakes... "To all the Nurses and Staff of Ward 53C Rm 27 who took care of me while I was there from 24 Jul 08 to 28 Jul 08. This is nothing compared to your dedication and service =) ... Lots of Love, Margaret (former occupant of Bed 2)"

what the nurses do and the amount of shit (literally!) they had to face each day takes alot of courage which i cannot bring myself to do... i din catch the nurse's name (i.e. the one who called me) but it felt good that i made their day and i could hear it from the tone of her voice =) i could not stop smiling after receiving her call... it really feels good when u know u have made someone happy... this is realli a small gesture on my part but i do wish that pple wld take time n effort to give thanks or show appreciation to those who have helped you or inspired you... it's sad when we can be so extravagant in our spending for ourselves but yet so stingy sometimes when it comes to spending on others or even just paying compliments... i have also arranged for a brands essence of chicken plus bird nest hamper to be sent to Dr Tan HK ... i think he did great for my op and also sometimes such little gestures provides some encouragement to these lifesavers cos i think in our society we are not so generous in terms of showing gratitude or paying compliments... who wouldnt feel good knowing they are not invisible and what they did is recognised?! i have been spending alot lately but i figured spending for these causes is impt and necessary... besides i guess when i downgraded from B1 to C, i saved like $3k in cash which otherwise i had to incur, so $150 for making so many pple feel appreciated is nothing =) ... erm, i gave like only 37 cupcakes to the ward, hope it is enough to go round though... i did specifically tell the nurse to save some for the night nurses esp the indian cum eurasian nurse who firmly told me to try getting up but provided both the support and patience :)

some thot it was strange to give essence of chicken to Dr Tan but when i checked out those florists, Thank You hampers usu comes with wine which seems more inappropriate lor... i mean docs have hectic lifestyles so at least he will be very alert like Utt in the commercial when he drinks brands hahahhahaha as opposed to drinking wine ;)

today seems like i have my 6th sense working... i correctly predicted Havis horoscope just by talking to her for a couple of minutes lol... maybe cos i could chat easily with her cos libra and sagi very gam :) sf n me, sec sch mate ivy n me etc .... also those petite mini collectible toys from japan that comes in a box but you dunno what toy is inside till u open it? there were 3 boxes of them, i was hoping for the one with the lollipop inside and guess what when i opened the 2nd box the lollipop was inside! but that's not all, i had hoped that the 3rd box wld be a lollipop again so that maybe i could use it as an ornament to a necklace or something and voila! 3rd box had a lolly inside too!!! abt being so zun4 i wished that i could win the RD's lottery of $200k lol... maybe i should go buy the toto or something... if the $8m was mine, my resignation letter wld be written on a $10 note and slid underneath Voldemort's room muahahahah.... *slaps self* need to stop daydreaming lol ;p .... both dragon n i did talk abt this... if i ever was so lucky (not in a million years lah) i would find a simple job to do like helping out in weiren's cafe lol...

oh yeah, i tink i better turn in before 4.30am... i had the most eerie feeling yest... around that time, my doggies suddenly wiggle out from under the sofa and rushed to the door macham someone was at the door lor... they seemed flustered as well... thinking it was my neighbour, i peeped thru the peep hole but no one was there! i then popped my head out of my living room window to get a better view of the corridor and again all was quiet not a soul in sight (choi! choi! choi!)! feeling uneasy, i quickly turn off my laptop and switched off the lights and quickly went to bed with trying my best to hide my face in the pillow =p ... when i discussed with dragon today... we joked that maybe it was the spirit of the guinea pig which Clover killed when she was younger and it was coming back to haunt her =p ... it was truly scary moment wor.... lucky got blessed cross outside my house... but dunno whether it works for animal spirits lol since they dont have religion.... so many qns abt this life hor and there are no answers for all...

yay, got lobang to do nonya kebayas at a cheaper rate than katong... apparently chinatown has many tailors or seamstress that can do kebayas and even nonyas go there n make... i want one to wear for dinners hee... its time to get in touch with my roots and unleash the bibik power lol ;D