Wilbur was in Fox, Topshop and Animal

went for pelvic ultrasound scan at SATA today and it really is a test of endurance and control *chuckles*...

when i saw the doc yest, he told me that they have to do the scan on a full bladder (which i thot was sap sap suay lor) so was advised to drink at least 6-8 glasses of H2O 2hrs before the scan... when the clinic nurse called me at 10am today, she informed that she made the appt with SATA at 11am ! i panicked caused i had not drank any water since i woke up lor (yeah, as u can see, i'm such an obedient citizen, help this country save water *lol*) !!! wtf! no choice had to gulp down like 3 glasses of water in the next couple of mins... on my way to SATA, i also bought mineral water as i was only halfway thru the requirement =( (btw, today is like the only day in my life to have drank so much water!!! very lucky i din drown man!!! i think most prob my blood now is super diluted! ok, ok, talking cock again lol)

the lady lab technician assigned to perform the scan told me to call her when i feel the urge to go to the loo... to speed things up, i downed the the mineral water and was ready to do the scan but the technician was not in the room! she appeared in a couple of mins and proceeded with the scan... she kept pressing the pelvic region with the scanner for like a good whole 20mins (bear in mind i'm holding my pee all this while!) ... during this time, she occasionally clicked a button, it was easy to guess that the button captures the screen shot of the area where she places the scanner, think either she wasnt a good photographer or my pelvic was giving poses that was not fit for a fashion magazine (think ANTM lol) cos she seemed to be re-taking the shots for most of the regions although i was lying quite stationary... aiyioh, the urge to turn on the water supply was killing me and my mind was furiously trying to recall where the nearest loo is! After she was satisfied with the pics, she told me the loo was just next door... hallelujah!

results will most prob be out tomorrow... keeping my fingers crossed tt here shouldnt be any cause for concern, somewhere at the back of my mind a little part is unsettled... oh well...

anyway, i conversed with Tee yest and i told him that i'm dying lol... he said tt i have to help sell off his onitsuka sneakers before i die, told him tt i will haunt him even if he is in church lol, added that if he is kneels during prayer and feels a depression in the cushion of which is he kneeling, that would be my ghost kekekekeke... i mentioned to dragon of my conversation with Tee but kena chided lor for talking abt such inauspicious stuff =p ... guess both me n tee had similar peranakan catholic upbringing where we tend to make light of things :)
i rem at my paternal grandma's funeral, which was held in our old pte apt at the 11th storey (yeah, its was a huge apt :)), my aunts n uncles all drank, ate, joke around their mum's coffin :) the atmosphere was definitely not sombre but merry... there were prayers n all still but guess what?! they still played limbo rock also all in full presence of my peacefully dead grandma =D the mood was such as they being catholics, they believed that death should be celebrated as it means you r in Heaven with God :) that's my family for you :) for some of u, it would seem strange but i'm really glad n thankful for having such a family as it makes me see things in a different light and kinda help me see the glass as half full rather than half empty :) that's y i can say after coming out of my teens, i have never blame God for all the bad patches that i experienced in life, good things actually come out of it but we dont realised most of the time... if the events did not happen in my life, i wouldnt have met dragon boy :)

after SATA, i explored bedok central... uncovered lots of interesting shops and also discovered my folly of shopping at the malls =p ... i found a similar hair tie which i had already bought at InQbox... i paid $4.50 for it but the shop only sold it for $2.90... arrrggghhh... to achieve economies of scale, i actually went to buy 3 more of the hair tie lol... i also bought like a kilo of cherries from a makeshift fruit stall near the interchange... so cheap lor! just $10 only!

actually i like the idea of exploring neighbourhoods but as i was not in the usual neighbourhood garb of tee, shorts n flip flops and sans make-up, some stupid uncles kept looking at me ... i wore my hair into 2 ponytails, had make-up and wore a A-line below knee skirt... i din like to think they had some stupid fantasy in their heads *pui pui pui* really felt like telling them 'kua si mi kua' but of course i would always chickened out cos its just me while they have the numbers lol
no doubt i like to dress up but that doesnt mean i'm dainty or dum lor! when some guys give a impolite stare, i would either crack my knuckles/neck or burp... it's a subtle message that i'm not some stupid gal they can fool, if they still dont get it, i would furrow my brows n give a super chao look... they would usu look away after heh ...

on way home, i felt very tired and sleepy... was deciding whether to get off at my home stop or at PP's but finally made the decision to shop in PP haha... this decision costs me abt $200 lol... i was thinking that maybe i wld die anway, hence maybe i should start to pamper myself hahhah... here's my loot list... bought 3 items at fox (2 tops n a pair of shorts only $58 cos UOB had additional 15% on top of its sale items) , a pair of jeans from topshop (thanks eugenia for telling us the other time abt the huge discount on its jeans), a bag n tee from animal (least discount of them all but e bag which i got for XY was hard to resist :p and one of their tee range was 40% off)... there was a super duper chio lamp at InQbox... it was made up of multi-coloured transparent lego bricks... very cute and colourful ... lucky thing i caught this printed on the box 'Made in China' so i managed to stop myself from buying heh :)

the doggies were treated with a kosong hamburger from macs :) figured that after scolding n screamin at them in the morning, i should counter it by being nice n surprising them =p ... lucky they were obedient when i got back else the burger would have been stored in the fridge... dinner was plain burger for me too lol... it's actually quite nice to eat a plain burger once in a while sans the ketchup, pickles etc...

Wilbur digs macabre humour

not many pple i know appreciates macabre humour... anything by tim burton i like very much :) like nightmare before christmas, corpse bride, charlie n the choc factory, sweetney tod and the list goes on... i can't really express or explain in words my love for such movies, it's like death is suppose to be a grave, sad thing but yet he manages to inject humour and lessons in them... ah...the ingenious play of contradiction... a series of unfortunate events, harry potter, pushing daisies are some of the other movies/tv shows which i dig... maybe most of my frens being chinese cannot fathom my love for such stuff cos afterall, death, skulls etc are suppose to be taboo topics or suay things that should not be made fun of *shrugs* ...

sometimes i wish i have a couple of whacky frens =p cos my secret fantasy is really to join a cosplay... dragon boy will frown upon this but as long as i'm not seen with him when i'm in costume i guess it shouldnt matter much to him *lol* seriously, i think it is fun n cool to dress up, it's one of those things i think i will die with regrets for not doing... so i have thot abt it, should i die young, i want to be dressed up like an anime character... but then again no one would have the guts to do this for me cos firstly they would be blamed for making a mockery of my funeral =( but to me it's not a mockery at all, i guess ultimately i just want pple to joke at my funeral and not be sad... most of us have been conditioned to display a specific type of emotion for specific occasions/events but why is it tt we have to follow or rather if we do not follow, we will be deemed as heartless, evil or crazy... it's sad really when we break out from the norm, we tend to get ostracised... but who has the right to dictate how we live anyway?

i respect and/or applaud pple like xiaxue, who dare to be forthcoming abt their views and also their flaws... she does not come across as fake and admits to her being vain n all... unless u lead an untainted life or have perfectly no flaws can u hate her, otherwise it is rather hypocritical dont u think to fault her or hate her?

have been splurging alot lately... i like all things pretty and unique and sometimes would tend to get carried away in my buying =p i think maybe i need to enrol myself in shopaholics anonymous!

got XY the Animal (UK brand) bag below and a cute card for her last day which was last Fri, i think she like the present and i pride myself for drawing the right analysis about her likings =p though we dont interact much at all but i managed to conclude that she will try new things, willing to adapt and will make an effort to stay trendy subtly... i got this by observing the way she dress and when she told me that she left it up to the chapter 2 hairstylist to cut her hair amongst others :) anyway, it's so much easier to get a gift for someone who is young as they dont have the earning power and it would come as a need to them instead of a want, but for us with earning power, we would have settled our needs long ago and now it's just satisfying our wants...

Melancholic Wilbur

sometimes i hate the fact tt i'm too considerate n nice but pple dont do the same back... makes me feel like an idiot... i wish to be mean but there r some pple whom u cant just blast cos then it will make them feel upset and pple will tend to take their side cos they are quiet... in the end, it's me, the plaintiff, who have pple accusing me of not being tolerant... excuse me! the fact that i blast basically means my tolerance limit has burst it's bubble due to constant inconsiderate words or actions by these pea brains!

over the years, i find myself covering for pple in their absence but no one covers me much, which is fine, but if you come back and start complaining incessantly of the amt of work you have, then pls go eat shit and just die... cos pple have been covering your duties on top on theirs and sometimes they even have to push aside their own work just to do yours. When u come back, how would one feel not to hear or feel any gesture of thanks but incessant complaining? i really wanted to give a tight slap across her face n just throw her down a flight of stairs... and can u believe this person could leave on the dot and still chat heartily in the morning despite having said she was bogged down with stuff... otak kembing, really! XY is really top notch when compared to her... geez... i just hope where ever she is gg, she would so suffer a terrible fate so she can wake up her idea... truly irresponsible!

feeling very downcast... it's not entirely attributed to SH's leaving but rather i missed the old batch of pple i used to work with like mingwen etc... all of us did not have a silo mentality then... it was never a 'me' first but rather we all helped each oher (even though it was not within our area of work or branch sometimes!) so that we din have to stay back too late etc... they offer help without the need for asking but now its so different... everyone for themselves and they just dont care... *heavy heart* it's getting so much harder to just grin n bear it nowadays... pple can leave on the dot while some of their older colleagues are staying back late everyday... no show of concern whatsoever... cos if they did, they would try to help their older colleagues resolve the issues so that they can go back to their family n spend time with them...

when i get out of the place, i hope to leave silently, no farewells and all cos' it doesnt matter anymore... i have lost the 'mojo' that made me stay all these years...
so sick n tired of everything in here... let the selfish con't their stay in their own warp silo world...

already thinking of snippets of wat to say when i leave...
11years just fleet through in a flash... feeling a little sad to leave... y a little? cos to me, this is not a permanent goodbye... though we may not be colleagues anymore, we will con't to be friends :) we could still meet up be it for tea, facial or shopping *grins* i'm pretty easy for most activities =)

working in AGD has enriched me in more ways than one which education alone could not do... i was like a young bottle of wine when i 1st joined but over the years, i have matured, my taste now richer and better and my journey ends here to see the outside world beyond the cellar :)
thank you all for eveything and that includes your patience, guidance, friendship, laughter... till we meet again, adieu...

Wilbur's one more thot...

oh yeah, recalled voldemort's conversation with SH yest (farewell lunch reception for agnes n mrs chua)... my take is tt parents will usu always try to protect their kids and prohibit them to do some stuff etc so they wont fall but i guess, it's not easy for parents to control the kids in some point... which may be a good thing afterall... parents may think they know the outcome of a decision we make before we actually emmbark on it but there may be times u gotta give us some credit that we will make the most out of any decision we make ... if we fall, it will be a good learning experience for us and would make us stronger as we will have our guards up and pick up skills or values from our fall... that's how u learnt from your parents too rite? i-told-u-so mentality would most of the time make us even more determined to break the norms set for us as we would want to prove u wrong...

to my future kid: remind me of this blog if i forget the words i have spoken here :)

Wilbur on a Saturday...

SH gave out the cupcakes to our colleagues yest, most were pretty impressed with the special airplane design on the cupcakes and the cupcakes being colorful and all (i guess colour therapy really works *grins*) :) fed this back to CCF and i hope it made her day :) anyway i finally realised what's the difference between muffins and cupcakes liao kekeke... i forgot that muffins had 'neh neh' shape so it will be a challenge to decorate them in comparison to cupcakes :) cool revelation *lol* but ahhh... if you think outta the box, it will be possible to decorate muffins as such as well :) i thot of the solution, have you? *muahahahah*

met CK for dinner and we went to s'pore flyer's hibiki restaurant (part of apex group which manages sakae sushi amongst others) for their promo meal package which comes with a s'pore flyer tic for a total px of $45 (after svc charges, taxes etc) per pax ... found it to be a good deal eventually as the meal was substantial (had to doggie bag some of my food items cos couldnt finish them)... the flyer tic is valid till end Sep 08 :)

btw, when we made our way to hibiki, we past by popeye's and boy was it crowded! think most pple din know it existed in changi airport many years back liao (tink when i was in my teens have already) :) its chicken is not too bad, a change if you get tired of KFC but there is another fried chicken place which existed in my teens which is still around today... it arnold's chicken located in city plaza... their chicken is not bad as the skin is pretty crispy and flavourful... they do delivery to limted places and marine parade is one of them *grins*... you know, sometimes it seems the ones with the better business acumen, are the ones who refrain from opening too many branches of their resturants, this way, they can maintain better QC and also at the same time, consumers would not be so easily jerlak of their food... couple of weeks back we held a farewell lunch for agnes at house of sundanese food, i'm all praise for them, food was good and the atmosphere was wonderful... decor was simple but yet it exuded a certain resort feel that for a moment it din feel like i was in boat quay but some bali resort *smiles* ... btw, there are only 2 HOSF in SG :) hope they stay that way... besides, if you know and understand the s'pore market, we like to try new things but due to the follow-what-the-joneses-do mentality, but we also tend to lose interest fast when we realised that its nothing special afterall... that's y its hard to sustain a biz if you go along wif the hype... there must be quality and unique-ness and a hard-to-imitate business plan... e.g. werner's oven :)

continuing from my dinner with CK, after dinner, we look see in the tourist retail shop in s'pore flyer... unless u r a carrot head, you might think twice buying some stuff in there... saw a simple pearl necklace designed with a couple of swarvosky crystals gg for $1,000 plus *amazed look* !!! wah lao, i can get dunno how many in chinatown lor!!! oh well...

anyway, we went to pick up SF at her workplace and proceeded to selegie to meet SH for rochor dou hua... after that we went to mr bean cafe (which all of us, other then SH, thot it was the mr bean dou hua place, much to the amusement and frustration of SH *lol* as we had alot of miscomm before we met him) as SF needed a light meal =) somehow i enjoy spending time with them, yes, there may be chat topics in some conversations which we cant join in here and there but i guess at the end of the day sharing a laugh is what warms me... when close colleagues leave, it is not a goodbye for me cos i believe what made us close in the first place is the trust and unspoken understanding that we will still hang out, though not as frequent (it can be couple of months or even years!), and continue to share laughter and stories as though we last met yest... good friendships withstand the test of time and though one may not tell everything to a fren now, bits of such info will be release later but it will make us closer as well...

though i may try to dress young (yeah, hate the fact to come across as adult-looking esp on weekends... form of escapism from being an adult the rest of the week *smiles*), it is not a reflection of my level of maturity... never judge a book by its cover is truly apt... if you know me well, u know tt i may joke and come across as a blondie sometimes but it's not always the case is it? :) maybe its all thanks to my peranakan blood that i can portray many different sides depending on the circumstances... tee might agree with me on this one :) becos peranakan blood is champo with asian and european so that's y we can most of the time adapt to situations :) i dont find a need to explain myself sometimes esp for those who cant get the most obvious hints... like i said, obvious liao so should catch the drift but no lor... so y bother waste my time in explaining anyway? *shrugs*

winter seems to have toned down in her naughty-ness... made me worried a bit cos i thot she may be ill but i guess its not :)

geez, been at this for like over an hr... have drained my brain of my thots accumulated these couple of days... which is good as i can have new thots in my brains in the coming days =) dragon is sending his mum to JB hence, i have my me time for whole of today :)

now... what's for lunch?

Wilbur the Nonya

Today was the 1st time i caught ch 5’s sayang sayang and i must say that’s it’s not bad :) have been quite sceptical all this time hence i did not make an attempt to watch it but happen to leave the tv on while i was doing my chores and the prog came on... kheng hua and james lee nonya & baba portrayal of a nonya and baba bitching and scolding was spot on and it made me tear... u must be thinking that i must be crazy to tear when it’s suppose to be a light hearted prog but a longing feeling came onto me... how i long to hear all that bibik talk & gossip, see my relatives wear the nonya baju and sarong, experience once again the peranakan culture which i was so accustomed to when i was a kid living with my paternal grandma... it struck me that no more will i have the chance to experience all these and what was worse was that i was losing my peranakan way of talking... my vocab seems to be getting limited by day... so much so that i started talking to the doggies in baba talk *grins* ... it’s sad to think that my peranakan heritage is lost with me =(

Talk abt nostalgia, there is still a mama shop in the block next to mine... it seems that the shop might one day be gone especially when we have a couple of giant supermarkets like cold storage and NTUC nearby, not to mention 2 7-11 convenience store... i am one who is for preservation of the old way of life and i hate the thot that one day all the stuff i was once familiar would be gone 4ever... pple nowadays don’t treasure anything at all (and that includes relationship with frens, family etc) and its maybe cos that’s y we become so self-centred, selfish, rude, oblivious to pple around us... it’s pathetic enough that we need to have campaigns to be courteous, spend more time with family, having ministers to tell us to be gracious, etc... speaking of which, the recent tvc on the family which was directed by Malaysian lady is truly touching... yeah i know that i contradict myself by criticising abt these campaigns but since its already done, i find it worth commending... ok, i tear again when i caught the whole tvc (father and daughter) earlier just now ... either mediacorp have perfected the technology of sending smells through tv or maybe i’m having a mid-life crisis, gotta face it that i’m old *grunt*

I hope ssc works out, i need the change... will see how it goes :)

Yay, few of us old poly classmates (some became ex colleagues too *lol*) will gather at ccf’s house next sat... will finally see her little gorgeous boy who starred opp zoe tay in the abbott milk commercial :) ccf is also another cool mum... she makes cupcakes and sells them online (www.littlefairyland.com)... truly happy that things are gg well for her... i sincerely feel happy for my close pals when i hear things are gg well for them *smiles with eyes closed*...

Darn! the cramps i get for my toes and calves once in a blue moon seem to be recurring quite frequently now... it’s bloodie painful... the toes curl up and when u try to straighten, they hurt real bad =( ... apparently i might be deficient in potassium so i need to start eating bananas (the yellow kind hor!!! Dirty minds... tsk tsk) which is high in them...but the problem is i only like pisang raja which me thinks is from m’sia, they are smaller but softer in flesh and it doesn’t give a siap siap after-taste which i get from eating those bloodie del monte brand *scratches tongue*... i need to drink lots of water too... aye... so troublesome... signs of aging? The skin under my eyes seems to sag... hoping for a miracle alternative to cosmetic surgery or botox... dream on Wilbur!

Shoulders and back starting to ache... the dining table and chair not suited for my using of vaio, but haven’t really been actively looking for a suitable portable table and ergonomic chair... maybe see whether dragon boy is keen to pop by ikea this weekend...

Alamak! dunno what happen to nesvita, all supermarkets, minimarts etc don’t have them... i no choice have to get omega plus... lighter taste but doesn’t seem to have iron and folic acid which nesvita has... i don’t read papers often, only just when i lay them on the ground for lining of the doggies pee and poo hahaha... (usu the headlines would intrigue me and i would just stand at the foot of the pee area to read the article =)) so if you guys see a report of the recall of nesvita due to some ban ingredient etc pls update me hor... kam sia zuay zuay =)

Wilbur says Thank You!

i escape from life for an hour yest... thanks hossan, for entertaining me... i'm so thankful there are entertainers like u around... so i ever leave Singapore for good, the thing i would miss most would be you, dim sum dollies and a couple of other local acts...

maybe its my peranakan background that made me enjoy hossan's piano playing and singing... u know, macham like talentime like tt... ah... the good old days when my grandma and mum winnie would tune in to such shows on tv...

hossan is truly talented and funny... though he is suppose to exude funny-ness but he manage to touch my heart when he sung those sad love songs... gotta hand it to him *applause* i very much like dragon boy to share my sentiments about hossan but he can be really stubborn... he doesnt like hossan's lifestyle that's why....

btw, hossan sang with his brother... not too sure whether he is younger or not but hossan definitely looks better... i kinda tink hossan got botox injects thats y he doesnt look his age :) his bro's singing not as strong and lively as hossan, he's supposedly to be a dj at 938 live though...

btw, i stopped by my neighbourhood's 7-11 before heading home... a woman made me pretty mad and nope she did not do anything to me but to the cashier... i wanted to pay for my items but the cashier was counting coins so he told me to give him a min of which i replied:"yah, sure :) no problem" then comes along this piece of shit face lady (no apologies for calling her this as she is deserving of the title) wanting to pay for her purchase... she had a slight irritated look when she saw the cashier oblivious to her (as he was still busy with the counting) and she ask whether she could pay, noticing that the cashier was trying not to lose count of the coins, i replied that he is counting coins... of which she immediately said:"it shouldnt be at the mercy of the customers!" i was taken aback at her reply. the cashier heard it too and his face was sour... a few secs later, he kept the coins away and attended to me... i had wanted to say 2 him out loud that some pple are just idiots but i held back my tongue... anyway, since she was queing behind me i made it a point to dig for my cash slowly etc... bloodie piece of arse... it's already getting harder to stay in this country with the high cost of living and all... it doesnt help when u have such pple making it worse then it already is... to hell with them man...

its seems like a stay home saturday today... i packed away some of my old clothes for giving away... damn i really inherit my grandma's habit of liking to keep lots of stuff and not throwing them away (my nyonya grandma use to say 'sayang' to throw away)... sometimes cos i never know when i these will be useful while other times its cos the stuff brings back memories =P ... but i managed to clear some clothes, so it's an minor achievement *grin*

CK looks more funky now which is way way cool then he was before :) met him yest as we went to watch hossan together... i almost din see him cos dunno y i was still expecting gelled down hair with glasses *lol*...

recently i have been sending in compliments, feedback when i get good service... nothing beats when u noe pple appreciate your service, it will kinda spur u on to do better... anyway, its my way of countering the mass complaints or idiotic behaviour of easily disgruntled pple here... hope this small gesture goes a long way :)

btw, if my BMI is normal, there is no reason to be alarmed and comment that i'm disappearing! get a hold of yourselves lah pple... some pple are blessed being naturally thin while others like me tend to put on weight easily cos of my family genes and hence i have to make the effort to be slim but as long as i'm of healthy weight and not freaking bony like calista flockhart or laura flynn boyle, there is no cause for concern hor...

geeze feeling sleepy... think zzz monster paying me a visit... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Wilbur's Roots

had dinner wif tee at miss clarity's at tanjong katong... tee was late and i was standing outside the cafe waiting... wasnt a good idea cos right smack opp the road was a pretty huge ktv lounge with a screaming neon sign... somehow it made the dick heads that walked past me think that i was waiting to be picked up *snarl* not tt i was dressed skimpyly lor... bunch of ass...

anyway, somehow those cheena uncles be it taxi driver or hawker somehow think tt all gals who dress up nicely i.e dress, make-up, pumps like v weak , dainty or got 'xiao jie' attitude... NOT all lor!!! couple of times when i'm in a dress, i feel that these hawker uncles think i 'xiao jie' so they have this look that seem to undermine my ability to carry my food by myself when i place an order... sheesh... if i note the sign that says 'self service', i would cary the food myself but some stupid uncle sometimes assume that i wont and once i place an order, they would immediately and grumpily remind me to carry my food... wtf... but guess cant blame them for thinking this way entirely cos i bet tt there would be some gu niangs that really yaya to these hawker uncles bah... wat to do?!

been a while (like a couple of years while haha) since i ate escargots... i used to have them at jack's place but after like eating them almost every week, i somehow stopped eating them... anyway, at clarity's we decided to order the snails... the seasoning was ok i guess but i wish they had more seasoning cos the inner part of the snail did not get the seasoning so a bit too original taste when i came to the end part *green* ... their food ok lah and prices i think r super reasonable :)

after makan, con't to chat with tee... good session as we talked abt being peranakan and how baba families all got problem one haha... i guess why i think differently is cos of my heritage and upbringing which is very unlike a typical pure chinese family... and maybe me being mixed with the different nationalities of my forefathers also play a part on why i'm a tad more open minded *grin*... sometimes i wish i could trace my family tree, it will be damn interesting lor ... dutch, english, indonesian, chinese, malay ... wah lao but my chest area have to take after the chinese trait *...* bian bian ...

geez, SH is leaving and literally on a jet plane (but maybe after a 1 year or so after he has grasp the practical :)) ... sure gonna miss having mr pakistani spikey head around but i'm truly happy for him tt he found his interest and maybe his calling :)total of 9 years man but he will haf good prospects if he can withstand the stress, pressure and demands of the job... ALL the BEST dude!

eye lid shutting down le... hope i can con't watever i had wanted to jot in the next week or so :) chiao for now!

Wilbur got her Wellies!

yay, my white wellies with bright green polka dots finally arrived from my purchase from ebay uk =) now all i need is rain, rain, rain waahahaaha so that i can splash the puddles without my feet getting wet *grins* ... there are a bit of print defects though but guess no choice bah, not feasible to send it back =p overall still quite pleased with my purchase *happy face*

Wilbur's Amazement

it's getting harder for me to accept how pple think and behave in this country... both dragon n me really tink tt its best to move out of this country and stay in places like BKK or japan (if we have the $$$) when we retire but recently, i have been contemplating to move even sooner... only prob is money and family...

i cant believe how some parents are got so worked up with the saving gaia ad of the mannequin boy being mutilated and mediacorp have to pull it off air... yah, your kid is scared then teach him not to be or explain to him... if not just cover his bloodie eyes lah!!! i grew up watching horror shows though i was not suppose to, of course i was super scared and had nightmares but u grow out of it... so what is it wif u dumb ass parents???!!! u cant protect the kid 4ever and sheltering them from such images only does more damage... imagine if the kid witness a death by accident where the head or body is all messed up, what r u gg to do then? really some parents have pea brains... if you notice, how come expats never complain abt such things? thats cos they are more exposed and are far more far sighted than the truly cheena parents some are... u go and think lah, kid having nightmare or saving the earth more important... no earth, kid no need to have nightmare also will die... f**king idiots...

u can say i wont understand cos i dont have kids, but the way i was brought up is enough for me to understand... i had a pretty strict upbringing and there were times i felt unloved and even contemplate suicide when i was a teenager, i wasnt spoiled though i was in a way the only child but being in this kind of situation made me stronger and taught me to be independent which i'm actually thankful for... my life hasnt always been perfect, in fact i consider it tumultuous but if i had to re-live my life over again, i would still choose the same cos if not i would not have been what i'm today... if i ever have a kid, i would only protect him if he ever comes close to danger but otherwise, he shall eat off from the table etc... being overly protective is more detrimental than u can imagine, it weakens our spirit, character... see how kids easily get the hand, foot and mouth diseases... they are not able to pick up stuff from the floor or table and pop it back in their mouth, hence, there body does not build up the natural defences, thereby weakening their immune system...

so tired of how pple can be so narrow minded, short sighted etc... it's really stifling just witnessing such incidents... i want out ...

before i wizz off to snooze land, i'm thankfuk to tee for recommending dr goh... he atcually waived the consultation fees when both me and sf went to see him just now... one hell of a doc!!!

Wilbur Po

watched kungfu panda today at the cinema. yes, u heard me rite, at the cinema *grins* ... it's been a while since both dragon boy n me caught a movie at the theatre, if u guys know us well, we have been catching movies from dvds *winks* cos dragon boy is a bit of a kiam kanna (direct translation - salty dried fruit *lol*) ... he suggested tt we catch the movie at a not so popular theatre, which was damn shiok cos other than a family of noisy kids, we had the whole cinema to ourselves!!! for once, i could prop my feet onto the front seat *happy* and i din have to shift in my seat uncomfortably cos no big heads were in front to block me lalalala *joyous* ... maybe my hormones are still imbalance cos i just ended my period but i have been pretty emotional the past couple of days, tearing without much logic and somemore could not control the emotion and tears... even when i watched kungfu panda, there were some scenes which actually touched me and tears welled up in my eyes *shrugs* ...

been having some minor frustrations wif dragon boy... he thinks tt i'm too harsh with winter but the thing is, he is not around much to see winter behave badly... she becomes rebellious when i shower her with love n attention... i guess that's the thing with pple, when we witness a single display of hostility, we tend to think that the person showing the hostility shouldnt been so petty etc, but if you did not experience what this person has gone through for him/her to act n this manner, it is best not to comment as both of you will risk being upset with each other... i can be pretty direct with my words sometimes when i need to defend my actions and it would usu cause conflict... i feel very frustrated when my behaviour and actions are misinterpreted esp by dragon boy whom i always assumed is to know me well but apparently sometimes he doesnt =p... he should by now understand tt i'm not usu very hostile or unfriendly but when my patience is worn thin after repeated trying by the same incident or person, it will push my hostile button... i had always expected him to support my actions but usu that's not the case =( he would comment which gets me upset... *sigh* sometimes, i find tt i would support him for his actions and if i dont agree, i wld just hold back my comments cos i know tt it might cos him to be even more upset so i just want him to do the same *roll eyes* ... MAN really from Mars!!!

Wilbur can see Venus!

aye, i always have been fascinated with the night sky... i always see a bright steady dot of light in the sky that's always close to the moon these couple of weeks, it's not a star but actually Venus *excitedly*! yeps! hands up those of u that know that this bright dot is a planet! amazing how we can see this planet with the naked eye... lately it's very bright and apparently i read tt its around this time when it the brightest!!! so cool... dragon boy doesnt believe me when i tell him its a planet, tells me it's a satellite *rolls eyes*.... anyway, me being a libra, love and appreciate all things beautiful and this is definitely one of the universe wonders which i very much appreciate... venus is like 26 million miles away from earth yet we can see it!

at other times of the year, the other steady dot of light would be other planets but venus is the most alluring cos it's the brightest of the lot... somehow looking at it gives me hope (maybe hence the phrase 'glimmer of hope'?) ... i guess i like the sky so much cos i know that beyond it, is the vast vast universe which have not been tainted by mankind unlike earth... caught a bit of the news on tv mobile... 2 orang utans got to sit the s'pore flyer, a publicity to make pple aware that we need to conserve the wildlife which is rapidly diminishing (though i dont get the part abt apes sitting the flyer and conservation *shrugs*)... it reported that only 7,500 orang utans are left in the world and increasing forest fires in sumatra contribute to the diminishing population... i was struck with grief and sadness almost immediately when i heard this... my heart cried as i imagine the apes being killed alive by the fires... at this moment, i really din believe the notion that 'one person could make a difference'... feel hapless, useless and ashamed, am i resigned to the fact tt nothing can be done to help the animals? i mean even if i wanted to help, wat can i do to stop the fires? pple here, including myself, seem to be more concern abt managing our own livelihood and seeking material things... though i don't splurge on luxury items but i am too guilty of seeking things that are wants and not needs... it saddens me to think we have become as such... bad news everywhere now... global warming etc... guess maybe a higher power is experimenting on us and observing how long more before we destroy ourselves when we get too smart for our own good... *heavy heart*

my flu from 3 weeks ago is still lurking in my bloodie system... lots of phlegm in my throat, making me cough irrationally... i need to like spit every now and then, damn gross and troublesome *grumble* ... just waiting for that mother-of-all clot that once i spit it out of my system, i'm cleared! doesnt feel like its coming out anytime soon though *aaarrrggghhh*....

btw, met up wif lyn n V at chin huat steamboat at novena on wed... they are my sec school mates... lynn is still flawlessly pretty as ever!!! u cant imagine her having 3 kids liao (3rd one is in the womb) ... ever heard of a 7 mths pregnant lady having a small shot of vodka at balaclava and puffs occasionally *lol* this is she :) gives meaning to the phrase "life is short" - i like! V is thinking of getting her 6th tattoo in US Miami ink but she wants a goat pic... hmmmm... anyway, she already so full of charm and charisma that even the shanghai gal models throw themselves at her and call her *shuai shuai* lol... she is like chris ho to me... epitome of cool with capital Os in the middle... as much as i would like to get a tattoo, dragon boy doesnt like me to have one, not a big deal for me lah... remember way back there was those cheap pale pink chewing gum with a teddy bear face on the different colour wrappers, on the other side of the wrapper was a robot 'tattoo'? we would transfer the tattoo onto our hand usu, by wetting the wrapper? can someone come up wif a super giant version of this wrapper but with better design, of course, for pple like me??? hahahahhaha.... lyn n V said that tattoos are a taboo for some cos it can change your luck to either very very good or very very bad and usu it will affect the stability if you are in a relationship... hmmm... i can be pan tang so i guess i wont want to take chances for now... esp if it would make my relationship turn bad =p ....

been online shopping lately, bought a pair of wellies from ebay london and eagerly waiting for it to arrive... bought it cos i thot it will be fun to wear during very wet days and besides, it will keep my feet dry... so practical and yet it fits into my change of style again :) it's white with big light green dots... guess this way, not too loud and easier to match clothes... did a whole lot of online purchases as well which i shall not go into details but think it's whole every cent spent! damn, i hope my habit of buying too many items which I do not have a chance to wear is not coming back full force... yeah, i ought to shoot myself... again seeking unwanted wants =(

better get some shut eye... clover was whining earlier, guess she sort of knows that by keeping late nights, i wont be able to wake up tmr =P ... aiyah, but how do i explain to her that sometimes, i just need to pen down my thots else if too many is bottled up i wont like explode lor...

Wilbur still under the weather...

been exactly a week since i visited my doc for flu and the works =p ... completed my medication a couple of days ago but the symptoms still persists... went to the doc again today and got stronger medication plus antibiotics... total damage for this damn flu virus? $69 for the 2 visits! medical cost really ex lor... heart pain man... usu i would self medicate but this time, its really serious, my mucus was all yellow goo *too bad if u feel sick from imagination of my condition... lol*...

some pple have been complaining abt the noise from TV mobile... apparently they have never encountered passengers who talk v loudly and non-stop throughout the entire bus journey whether over the phone or to the person beside them... i was caught in such a situation a couple of times and trust me, TV mobile is nothing compared to those goondu buggers who have no bloody sense of consideration towards other passengers... yest i was suay enuf to have to sit through listening a bloody woman talk over the phone to her publicist or something... wah lao i really felt like striking her with a super sharp heel so that she will be killed instantly and from the looks of the other passengers sitting near her, they too seem to share the same thots as me... she kept gg on and on and repeating her sentences, think worse of all she spoke like she v smart and helpful like that, cannot stand!!! maybe also her voice not that pleasant... if she had the angelic voice of chloe agnew the teen prodigy then maybe we wont find it offensive... geez...

went to trim my hair yest... it was an impromptu action as I was shopping at far east plaza and i notice this salon was still open though it was abt 845pm and it had a japanese name 'haru' lol ... paid $38, find it ex but i really wanted a hair cut as my fringe was causing me to have neck aches cos' it was too long and it blocked my side views so much so that i would have to tilt my head uncomfortably occasionally... anyway, the hairstylist was a male and his name is Kenji though he seemed m'sian to me hee... anyway, they closed at 9pm but cos of me he had to close at 9.30pm... felt bad lah but i think $38 covers the inconvenience besides i told him i dont need to have a wash though he offered :) pleased with he hair cut... i have fringe!!! not possible a couple of months back when my chin was blunt haha... but losing weight recently brought some sharpness back =) but my face still lop-sided =( one side seems to be puffier... seriously, the right side of me is full of imperfections... evidence? right ear is folded and juts out if the hair is too thin around there, my right eye is lazy, my right ankle is fatter (know this cos I those shoe straps that goes round), my right elbow has a darker discolouration at he groove, my right thigh has very obvious varicose veins popping, my eczema happens more on my right feet and now even my right pit, my right leg got the burnt mark from the lousy acupuncture treatment... dont think i need to go on... my right profile is not my best... in fact find it ugly... but guess i have to embrace these imperfections... no choice right?! *sticks out tongue*

my plan is to get out of hell after June... no matter if i'm not offered a job from my applications... i intend maybe to just work at some fast food joint like MOS burger or Carl's Jr for the time being to take a break and still have some income... when can i win like some big sum of money so that i can find some senang work for the rest of my life??? day dreaming again!!! i'm also toying with the idea tt maybe i will ask weiren if he needs my help at his soon-to-be-opened cafe in july, of course no favours lah, will still be paid a waitress pay that he is offering =p

though i'm not well but i'm happy to spend time with my 2 babies =) ... clover is seriously adorable and likable... winter still irritates me sometimes but i hope she will grow up to be more obedient... one thing abt big dogs is that u can hug them real hard... same goes for hamsters... i always like syrians cos they can fill your whole palm and i can gently rub noses with shinobi milky and snowy... dwarf hamsters more swift and agile so harder to catch them and they seem to be more wary then syrians... too me, holding a syrian more shiok than dwarf lah... syrian more affectionate =)

sigh, wanted to get those ballet-like shoes from far east but those that sold in the stores now not as nice or comfy as the ones i bought previously... the ones i have now are really super comfy but the red pair is spoiled while the under part of the black pair is broken, it can still be worn... though i have the makings of imelda macos for my collection of shoes, i tend to stick to a certain pair when it is comfy and complements my dressing style at a certain point in time... like now, i like wearing mini skirts and the ballet pumps helps to balance the look from becoming too casual or campy...

told myself to stop buying clothes but yest i saw those vintage tees which i have seen in those fashion mags... queens couture is like selling them at a bomb.. $60? but i came by this stall along orchard that were selling them and very much like those available in queens but at a fraction of the price... they were having a sale so they are selling 2 for $27 else one would be like $18 for one... i wanted to get 2 initially but the tee base colours v dull like grey, maroon so in the end i got a 'tide' in pale yellow and the other is a guy's tee for dragon boy... not too sure whether he will like it cos the tee is for bikers, got 'motorbike' printed on the front but he drives lor =p ...

time to get some shut eye... gg to hell again tmr...

Wilbur speaks....

all was well these couple of years but u had to return and invoke the part of me that was dormant all these while... the way i think now has nothing to do with anyone but the experiences i went thru these couple of years... i have kept quiet all these while just to prevent things from turning ugly but you had to disrupt the balance and now my peace-loving self now wants to take a backseat and send forth my justice self to take over... matters will turn ugly for justice to prevail but if you keep pushing you leave me with no choice...
the talk we had recently made me feel that u still care but no one will believe that u still do or that it was sincere as they werent present, its hard for me to convince them as i know they have my interest at heart... i cant only tell them to trust me no matter what decision i make... i just need their support... i may make the wrong decision but i just dont want pple to get hurt and that includes you...
i agree to take over all that is owing though to it may seem unfair to others because i dont want things to turn out ugly ... money to me is just a mean of basic survival but other than that it is nothing more to me... so even it's unfair in the eyes of others as long as u are appease it doesnt matter where the scale tips...
i guess now its a wait n see... i dont appear as gullible now then when u knew me back then cos life was simple last time and there was no necessity or reason for me to bring up my act... but you dont seem to get all these... you mind is still naive that u are willing to fall prey to those that others despise... i dont know how to make u realise your folly other then subtle reminders and by prayer... i guess both of us are wary of each other cos the pple beside us are telling us not to trust or believe each other... but after the talk, something tells me tt u are sincere... i hope u find tt wif me too...

Wilbur - Sex Guru?

revelation when i was travelling in a cab...
the male anatomy can be liken to a key whilst the female sexual organ, a keyhole... finding the right key may not always be easy but once the key fits... it's hello, heaven! *hysterical laughter* ...

seriously, i find physical intimacy very important between couples... you may not always get along wif each other outside the bedroom but if both derived extreme pleasure in bed then it can keep the relationship going strong... gals should try to loosen up and not be a prude... blame it on our culture or upbringing that sex is not to be enjoyed but merely as a mean to pro-create... i know some gals will cringe when they see porn cos they find certain acts disgusting, erm, you can say bye bye to a long lasting rel'ship esp if your guy is a full blooded male... women who are willing to loose all their inhibitions will have the last laugh...

human beings are such that we are attracted to those who we perceive as good looking and if our partner is both gorgeous and a pleasure in bed, we tend to want the rel'ship to keep going even though sometimes the partner may not have the best of character... maybe that's y some gals hold on to a rel'ship though the guys are jerks =p ...

my advice to the females "dont shy, dont shy" ... and make sure you maintain your figure and appearance as when you guys 1st met... you have to make an effort esp if you really love him... dont trust when he says i love you no matter how u look... it's like him telling u that u r not fat... so please, make an effort to look good and please your man (of course he has to do the same for you lah)... doesnt matter that we are in the 20th century, you gotta be are smart enough to play the game to engage your man :) ... of course assuming that all other factors remain constant *lol*

have been there, done that *winks*

Wilbur is joyous!!!

david cook is the new american idol!!! woo hooo!! cant wait for his cd to be out... it will be the 1st time ever i actually buy an idol cd man... cook is really talented beyond words thus deserves to win...

Wilbur's Adventures!

never once had i experience so many emotions and encounters over one weekend... u know how sometimes things are all peaceful and tranquil and then WHAM! BAM! bad news comes and spoils the peace and you aint sure when the turmoil will end??!!! that's what is happening to me now... looks like my past caught up with me and i have to bear with a whole lot of inconveniences which i dunno will last till when... its frustrating to know that the rights that i have been doing to correct the wrong i did in the past is being ignored... aarrrrggghhh... bloodie idiot!!!

i dont blame all these incidents on God, really!... i'm really thankful to have dragon boy by my side and for being so understanding that i really have to pinch myself everytime to make sure that i'm not dreaming... things are gg pretty well wif us and i'm grateful to the heavens for letting me experience wat is love and to be loved... it was not all smooth sailing but at least now it is and it can help counter the bad patch tt i'm gg thru, if not i wld just crumble faster than u can say bread crumbs...

btw, the mrt trail was fun though i was not out field in action but in the room sms-ing away for like 3 hrs... saw the goondu side of some pple, cant believe them leh!!! gabra and blur... how can we trust them to serve the people???!! *slaps forehead* ... good grief! anyway, sat was a super rush and busy day... travelled here, there and everywhere... bought birthday pressie and cake for dragon boy at parkway at the end of the day... the 'butch' at inqbox was super nice and helpful... she si bei stylo leh, got tattoo on her whole hand... she helped me with choosing the cuff links =)

felt a tad bit upset that dragon boy did not have a great birthday, he nearly got into an accident and we din do well at prawning also =p not to mention that i had to drop the bad news on him... but luckily things looked up a bit yesterday all except prawning cos we only caught 2 and dinner at ikea cos it was freaking packed and pple were sooooooo selfish and horrible!! got into a bit of action while on our way home... encountered a dumb ass and his sidekick, we are hoping tat we can teach them a great big lesson they are dying for... dont blame ask cos they are really asking for it man... stupid f*s... or u gen them till they foam in their mouth... dont know that we are actually older than we look... tsk tsk...

Wilbur's getting out of the sty

working in the same office for the past 10 plus years, there are of course times when i made an attempt to leave but of course it never materalised... either cos i was not ready to change to a new environment, pay cut or the job itself was not appealing... seems like many excuses hahaha... at each point in time i wanted to leave, it din feel right... i recalled last year i so much wanted to quit after a baseless scolding session from voldemort but eventually decided against it cos i din want to leave ivy and SH in the lurch as renovations was undergoing... i always feel obligated towards ivy as i know the amount of pressure put on her and the kind of shit she takes in for us... good begets good so i have been putting on hold my leaving as i know i can still be of help to pple like SH and ivy in bid to lessen their load... these are the kind of support amongst some of us in office and always pulls me to con't to stay on... like yest, SH, Ee, YQ and myself were the only ones left in office and we all started chatting and laughing... it's a warm and nice feeling knowing that we can all just happily chat on topics such as marriage etc when we dont usu work together let alone eat lunch together...

lately i have this sense of feeling that its time to take my leave... there have been major changes to the org chart... ivy's no longer handling operations... which seems to be the right time for me... never once have i thot of my farewell words to voldermort and ivy but it came to me a couple of days back... i have learned alot all these years and these experiences have enriched my life in one way or another, i never felt any regret joining this office... it provided me what education alone cannot do... the new pple nowadays all come with a dont like, then quit attitude, which is sadly why they don't pick-up skills that cannot be taught but comes with experience... i'm not one who praises oneself but there are times when i find that i can handle situations better than some of those with higher education but the sad thing is that i'm not paid according to how i use my brain... which is why i'm still very bitter abt J... the disparity in income in comparison to the amount of work and thinking she puts in really tips the scale so much that it looks like it can never be set right... as a librian, such injustice all the more drives me to wanna get out...

Wilbur's Journey to the West ;)

calm piggy travelled with fiery dragon to the west today *chuckles*... it's been ages since we travelled out of the laid back east nest *grins*... visited qian hu fish farm, stopped by a couple of other fish farms and vegetation farms and then to farmart... the weather was great today as it wasnt hot and humid like the past weekends... even at 12pm, though there was sunlight, the air was cool and breezy while we were at east coast with the 2 monkeys i.e. clover n winter haha... i din even perspire while walking the dogs! btw we drove to east coast actually cos we wanted to lunch at carl's jr and we didnt want to tire the doggies out hahaha (guess that might come as a lame excuse, we just have to admit that we were lazy lah *lol*)... we has thot that we could eat at carl's jr (the free flow of salsa sauce and freshly chopped onions is what entices us to eat there :)) with the doggies if we set outside (alfresco) but no lor, they had a no pets allowed sign, it sucks man... looks like only kenny is accommodating to dog owners =p ... in the end we decided ta pao from carl's... carl's was super busy today man, waited for some time for my order to be ready, but no matter cos' it was amusing seeing the supervisor yelling and chasing the kitchen in a subtle gordon ramsey style... speaking of which, i adore gordon for his profanities and sarcasm in hell's kitchen...

while i got back to the car where dragon was waiting with the monkeys, dragon boy was flipping thru the street directory to check how to get to farmart but he could not find farmart in the directory... girls, this is where u might like to pay attention *smiles*... i offered in a non-insisting manner to look it up in the street directory but of course guys sometimes think that we gals suck at such things so he just con't to flip thru the directory, i din press on *impt to note* and flipped thru the sunday times to read instead :) after a couple of minutes, i subtly offered again and this time he relented but of course he had to start driving when he passed me the directory (did i mention that i might suffer from giddiness when i read in moving vehicles??), oh well, in the end i found it kekeke *gals,10, guys, 0* not because gals are smarter but rather we are more patient and detailed... i actually went thru all the categories when i found it :)

btw, was impressed with qian hu cos they have expanded quite extensively since i last visited the place a couple of years back... their farm was totally neat, clean and dry which is not like what the usual old traditional fish farms are like... they had a wide wide wide array of fresh water fishes and what truly touched me was that there are some fishes with major deformities (like the arowna i saw with seriously bended body) but they con't to rear the fishes and did not put them up for sale (there were not for sale signs next to these fishes)... i wld think that some others might just kill them just because it's practical to do so esp when you are running a business... Buddha would be so proud of them cos its really practising his teachings of not killing any life... they really earn my respect and admiration... 100 brownie pts from me =) oh yeah, dragon boy asked me whether i wanted to try the fish cleansing feet treatment which was available but after seeing tons of pple sharing the same pond where little dumb fishies will nibble at their feets to rid of the dead skin cells, i decided not too liao... eh! a bit unhygienic rite??!! *eeewwwww*

at the vegetation farm, there was like a mini mini market that sold fresh fruits and vegetables, not a whole lot of variety though but it was damn bloodie cheap wor! i bought like 5 or 6 pieces of jap sweet potatoes (heh, eating one rite now after i boiled it) and 2 reasonable sized carrots at total price of $2.40! unbelievable man!!

most pple at the farms which i seen today are so un-tainted wif the material aspects of life (other then qian hu lah) ...they seem to earn just enough for a simple livelihood... i wish i could be like them... some of them stay in those single storey houses like the ones u see in m'sia with stray dogs as their pets... simple way of life that was brought about with the absence of education... such irony... here i am with an education but it brings about much work stress and it somehow made me to want material things... doesnt education sound like the forbidden apple which eve ate? if we didnt take it then, we should not have to suffer all these depression that work and life brings cos we wont know and understand too much... but alas, most of us in society are suffering... *hangs head*

sometimes gg to such ulu places bothers me cos i see alot of strays... its ok if they are fed but there seems to be some who have scour for food... my heart breaks each time i witness such scenes... that's y dragon boy would pull me away cos i will literally break down and tear... i feel so hapless... sometimes i rather they be put to sleep so they wont have to go through such a hard suffering life... it isnt fair to them... they get no help not like us humans... spca cant do much as well cos they dont have the resources (money, manpower and space) to do so... *hangs head low*

last stop at the west was farmart, nothing interesting really other than a prawning site... also i witness a husky being barricade and chained outside a pet shop... it was howling lor... so poorthing, was pissed that the pet shop didnt put it in the shop where there was air condition cos there wasnt much air outside!!! my darlings dont get air con but got fan hor... and my place is pretty cool... freaking idiot pet shop!!!

we went to AMK hub's NTUC to get groceries and boy was it crowded!!! it's like these pple have news that Armageddon is coming during the week and are stocking up... geeze... i hate crowds! esp when majority of them all have cow sense and jam up the place with their trolleys... arrrghhh...

time to hand my washing... to all a very good morning hahahaha cos its like 1am liao =)

Wilbur's Discernment

sf used to joke about being colleagues and frens... in mock anger she would always asked 'colleague or friend?' when we irritated her =) ... i kinda missed those times when sf, huat, xj were in office... they the 1st seriously fun and nice batch of accountants i have come across all these years... u cant even believe tt they are from ntu! they are really not your typical quiet sort of accountants... all that is left of their batch is SH... he is seriously super nice tt i have no qualms helping him no matter how busy i am... recently i kinda missed his presence in office... very much so yest... before u think tt i'm infatuated with him, i'm not!... i miss him as a fren...other than ivy and a few others whom i frequently bitch to in office, SH is the only one who i guess i can just open up to alot and really pepper my conversations with him with plenty of vulgarities =) ...

an incident yest revealed that really, there is a difference between those whom are real frens and just colleagues at work... a fren at work would offer to help u when they sense that you are stressed whilst a colleague would just be oblivious to the fact that u r so busy (although you explicitly tell them) and still not offer to do something which they are suppose to do in the 1st place...i was asked to offer suggestions for a birthday gift for c to give her on fri i.e tmr, of which i did and even provided the catalogue to f and p, later i was asked whether i could buy the gift but i said i was busy and suggested j to buy, j could not find the item online and p asked me how, i was super frustrated cos i would expect j to think of an alternative so i said tt i would buy ...f, p, and j all left by 630pm... would u fill totally upset if u were me? dont they think i dont want to leave early as well??!! but i have work and tons of email and now had to even get c's present!!! i left office at 11pm and din manage to get c's present until just now when i had the mind and time to browse thru the web... p, f and j is kinda closer to c but yet looks who is getting the gift??!!! still am disappointed and upset... i hate the fact tt i cant just be evil and not get the gift at all...

all these incidences have repercussions... so what if you observe religious practices?, it sometimes doesnt make u a better person, that's why like gil grissom i only believe in God and not religion... p and j are catholics but still the basic teachings of offering help to those in need are absent from their minds... p may be still young and sheltered so i may be quick to judge but j should display the behaviour of a catholic! j has been putting off some of the tasks that she is suppose to do for the past few months, it doesnt matter if she is the one solely getting the blame but she should know that she would get v i trouble as well...
some religions are just pulling pple in without giving pple time to think whether they ready to take on the roles and responsibility of being in the religion... for me, i dont think tt i'm ready, my shortcomings are still quite dominant but i take pride that i try my very best to be very aware of the pple and surroundings around me... i'm not perfect as i will still be mean to those i dislike but i will still be considerate like helping pple at work whenever i can, helping strangers pick up items they have dropped or standing aside for pple to walk ahead, thanking profusely for pple who hold the lift doors for me etc..
pple should only commit to a religion only when stop being selfish and can pray for others well-being as well... i wld think some pple just pray for themselves and not others ...

pets can be so much better than some humans i have encountered... they show gratitude back ...

sometimes work seems heavy but as long as you have frens at work, it helps to ease the stress and make life better...
if the pple i mentioned happen to read this blog, know that i'm not trying to make enemies but at least u should know why i'm pissed...