Wilbur was in Fox, Topshop and Animal

went for pelvic ultrasound scan at SATA today and it really is a test of endurance and control *chuckles*...

when i saw the doc yest, he told me that they have to do the scan on a full bladder (which i thot was sap sap suay lor) so was advised to drink at least 6-8 glasses of H2O 2hrs before the scan... when the clinic nurse called me at 10am today, she informed that she made the appt with SATA at 11am ! i panicked caused i had not drank any water since i woke up lor (yeah, as u can see, i'm such an obedient citizen, help this country save water *lol*) !!! wtf! no choice had to gulp down like 3 glasses of water in the next couple of mins... on my way to SATA, i also bought mineral water as i was only halfway thru the requirement =( (btw, today is like the only day in my life to have drank so much water!!! very lucky i din drown man!!! i think most prob my blood now is super diluted! ok, ok, talking cock again lol)

the lady lab technician assigned to perform the scan told me to call her when i feel the urge to go to the loo... to speed things up, i downed the the mineral water and was ready to do the scan but the technician was not in the room! she appeared in a couple of mins and proceeded with the scan... she kept pressing the pelvic region with the scanner for like a good whole 20mins (bear in mind i'm holding my pee all this while!) ... during this time, she occasionally clicked a button, it was easy to guess that the button captures the screen shot of the area where she places the scanner, think either she wasnt a good photographer or my pelvic was giving poses that was not fit for a fashion magazine (think ANTM lol) cos she seemed to be re-taking the shots for most of the regions although i was lying quite stationary... aiyioh, the urge to turn on the water supply was killing me and my mind was furiously trying to recall where the nearest loo is! After she was satisfied with the pics, she told me the loo was just next door... hallelujah!

results will most prob be out tomorrow... keeping my fingers crossed tt here shouldnt be any cause for concern, somewhere at the back of my mind a little part is unsettled... oh well...

anyway, i conversed with Tee yest and i told him that i'm dying lol... he said tt i have to help sell off his onitsuka sneakers before i die, told him tt i will haunt him even if he is in church lol, added that if he is kneels during prayer and feels a depression in the cushion of which is he kneeling, that would be my ghost kekekekeke... i mentioned to dragon of my conversation with Tee but kena chided lor for talking abt such inauspicious stuff =p ... guess both me n tee had similar peranakan catholic upbringing where we tend to make light of things :)
i rem at my paternal grandma's funeral, which was held in our old pte apt at the 11th storey (yeah, its was a huge apt :)), my aunts n uncles all drank, ate, joke around their mum's coffin :) the atmosphere was definitely not sombre but merry... there were prayers n all still but guess what?! they still played limbo rock also all in full presence of my peacefully dead grandma =D the mood was such as they being catholics, they believed that death should be celebrated as it means you r in Heaven with God :) that's my family for you :) for some of u, it would seem strange but i'm really glad n thankful for having such a family as it makes me see things in a different light and kinda help me see the glass as half full rather than half empty :) that's y i can say after coming out of my teens, i have never blame God for all the bad patches that i experienced in life, good things actually come out of it but we dont realised most of the time... if the events did not happen in my life, i wouldnt have met dragon boy :)

after SATA, i explored bedok central... uncovered lots of interesting shops and also discovered my folly of shopping at the malls =p ... i found a similar hair tie which i had already bought at InQbox... i paid $4.50 for it but the shop only sold it for $2.90... arrrggghhh... to achieve economies of scale, i actually went to buy 3 more of the hair tie lol... i also bought like a kilo of cherries from a makeshift fruit stall near the interchange... so cheap lor! just $10 only!

actually i like the idea of exploring neighbourhoods but as i was not in the usual neighbourhood garb of tee, shorts n flip flops and sans make-up, some stupid uncles kept looking at me ... i wore my hair into 2 ponytails, had make-up and wore a A-line below knee skirt... i din like to think they had some stupid fantasy in their heads *pui pui pui* really felt like telling them 'kua si mi kua' but of course i would always chickened out cos its just me while they have the numbers lol
no doubt i like to dress up but that doesnt mean i'm dainty or dum lor! when some guys give a impolite stare, i would either crack my knuckles/neck or burp... it's a subtle message that i'm not some stupid gal they can fool, if they still dont get it, i would furrow my brows n give a super chao look... they would usu look away after heh ...

on way home, i felt very tired and sleepy... was deciding whether to get off at my home stop or at PP's but finally made the decision to shop in PP haha... this decision costs me abt $200 lol... i was thinking that maybe i wld die anway, hence maybe i should start to pamper myself hahhah... here's my loot list... bought 3 items at fox (2 tops n a pair of shorts only $58 cos UOB had additional 15% on top of its sale items) , a pair of jeans from topshop (thanks eugenia for telling us the other time abt the huge discount on its jeans), a bag n tee from animal (least discount of them all but e bag which i got for XY was hard to resist :p and one of their tee range was 40% off)... there was a super duper chio lamp at InQbox... it was made up of multi-coloured transparent lego bricks... very cute and colourful ... lucky thing i caught this printed on the box 'Made in China' so i managed to stop myself from buying heh :)

the doggies were treated with a kosong hamburger from macs :) figured that after scolding n screamin at them in the morning, i should counter it by being nice n surprising them =p ... lucky they were obedient when i got back else the burger would have been stored in the fridge... dinner was plain burger for me too lol... it's actually quite nice to eat a plain burger once in a while sans the ketchup, pickles etc...

Wilbur digs macabre humour

not many pple i know appreciates macabre humour... anything by tim burton i like very much :) like nightmare before christmas, corpse bride, charlie n the choc factory, sweetney tod and the list goes on... i can't really express or explain in words my love for such movies, it's like death is suppose to be a grave, sad thing but yet he manages to inject humour and lessons in them... ah...the ingenious play of contradiction... a series of unfortunate events, harry potter, pushing daisies are some of the other movies/tv shows which i dig... maybe most of my frens being chinese cannot fathom my love for such stuff cos afterall, death, skulls etc are suppose to be taboo topics or suay things that should not be made fun of *shrugs* ...

sometimes i wish i have a couple of whacky frens =p cos my secret fantasy is really to join a cosplay... dragon boy will frown upon this but as long as i'm not seen with him when i'm in costume i guess it shouldnt matter much to him *lol* seriously, i think it is fun n cool to dress up, it's one of those things i think i will die with regrets for not doing... so i have thot abt it, should i die young, i want to be dressed up like an anime character... but then again no one would have the guts to do this for me cos firstly they would be blamed for making a mockery of my funeral =( but to me it's not a mockery at all, i guess ultimately i just want pple to joke at my funeral and not be sad... most of us have been conditioned to display a specific type of emotion for specific occasions/events but why is it tt we have to follow or rather if we do not follow, we will be deemed as heartless, evil or crazy... it's sad really when we break out from the norm, we tend to get ostracised... but who has the right to dictate how we live anyway?

i respect and/or applaud pple like xiaxue, who dare to be forthcoming abt their views and also their flaws... she does not come across as fake and admits to her being vain n all... unless u lead an untainted life or have perfectly no flaws can u hate her, otherwise it is rather hypocritical dont u think to fault her or hate her?

have been splurging alot lately... i like all things pretty and unique and sometimes would tend to get carried away in my buying =p i think maybe i need to enrol myself in shopaholics anonymous!

got XY the Animal (UK brand) bag below and a cute card for her last day which was last Fri, i think she like the present and i pride myself for drawing the right analysis about her likings =p though we dont interact much at all but i managed to conclude that she will try new things, willing to adapt and will make an effort to stay trendy subtly... i got this by observing the way she dress and when she told me that she left it up to the chapter 2 hairstylist to cut her hair amongst others :) anyway, it's so much easier to get a gift for someone who is young as they dont have the earning power and it would come as a need to them instead of a want, but for us with earning power, we would have settled our needs long ago and now it's just satisfying our wants...

Melancholic Wilbur

sometimes i hate the fact tt i'm too considerate n nice but pple dont do the same back... makes me feel like an idiot... i wish to be mean but there r some pple whom u cant just blast cos then it will make them feel upset and pple will tend to take their side cos they are quiet... in the end, it's me, the plaintiff, who have pple accusing me of not being tolerant... excuse me! the fact that i blast basically means my tolerance limit has burst it's bubble due to constant inconsiderate words or actions by these pea brains!

over the years, i find myself covering for pple in their absence but no one covers me much, which is fine, but if you come back and start complaining incessantly of the amt of work you have, then pls go eat shit and just die... cos pple have been covering your duties on top on theirs and sometimes they even have to push aside their own work just to do yours. When u come back, how would one feel not to hear or feel any gesture of thanks but incessant complaining? i really wanted to give a tight slap across her face n just throw her down a flight of stairs... and can u believe this person could leave on the dot and still chat heartily in the morning despite having said she was bogged down with stuff... otak kembing, really! XY is really top notch when compared to her... geez... i just hope where ever she is gg, she would so suffer a terrible fate so she can wake up her idea... truly irresponsible!

feeling very downcast... it's not entirely attributed to SH's leaving but rather i missed the old batch of pple i used to work with like mingwen etc... all of us did not have a silo mentality then... it was never a 'me' first but rather we all helped each oher (even though it was not within our area of work or branch sometimes!) so that we din have to stay back too late etc... they offer help without the need for asking but now its so different... everyone for themselves and they just dont care... *heavy heart* it's getting so much harder to just grin n bear it nowadays... pple can leave on the dot while some of their older colleagues are staying back late everyday... no show of concern whatsoever... cos if they did, they would try to help their older colleagues resolve the issues so that they can go back to their family n spend time with them...

when i get out of the place, i hope to leave silently, no farewells and all cos' it doesnt matter anymore... i have lost the 'mojo' that made me stay all these years...
so sick n tired of everything in here... let the selfish con't their stay in their own warp silo world...

already thinking of snippets of wat to say when i leave...
11years just fleet through in a flash... feeling a little sad to leave... y a little? cos to me, this is not a permanent goodbye... though we may not be colleagues anymore, we will con't to be friends :) we could still meet up be it for tea, facial or shopping *grins* i'm pretty easy for most activities =)

working in AGD has enriched me in more ways than one which education alone could not do... i was like a young bottle of wine when i 1st joined but over the years, i have matured, my taste now richer and better and my journey ends here to see the outside world beyond the cellar :)
thank you all for eveything and that includes your patience, guidance, friendship, laughter... till we meet again, adieu...

Wilbur's one more thot...

oh yeah, recalled voldemort's conversation with SH yest (farewell lunch reception for agnes n mrs chua)... my take is tt parents will usu always try to protect their kids and prohibit them to do some stuff etc so they wont fall but i guess, it's not easy for parents to control the kids in some point... which may be a good thing afterall... parents may think they know the outcome of a decision we make before we actually emmbark on it but there may be times u gotta give us some credit that we will make the most out of any decision we make ... if we fall, it will be a good learning experience for us and would make us stronger as we will have our guards up and pick up skills or values from our fall... that's how u learnt from your parents too rite? i-told-u-so mentality would most of the time make us even more determined to break the norms set for us as we would want to prove u wrong...

to my future kid: remind me of this blog if i forget the words i have spoken here :)

Wilbur on a Saturday...

SH gave out the cupcakes to our colleagues yest, most were pretty impressed with the special airplane design on the cupcakes and the cupcakes being colorful and all (i guess colour therapy really works *grins*) :) fed this back to CCF and i hope it made her day :) anyway i finally realised what's the difference between muffins and cupcakes liao kekeke... i forgot that muffins had 'neh neh' shape so it will be a challenge to decorate them in comparison to cupcakes :) cool revelation *lol* but ahhh... if you think outta the box, it will be possible to decorate muffins as such as well :) i thot of the solution, have you? *muahahahah*

met CK for dinner and we went to s'pore flyer's hibiki restaurant (part of apex group which manages sakae sushi amongst others) for their promo meal package which comes with a s'pore flyer tic for a total px of $45 (after svc charges, taxes etc) per pax ... found it to be a good deal eventually as the meal was substantial (had to doggie bag some of my food items cos couldnt finish them)... the flyer tic is valid till end Sep 08 :)

btw, when we made our way to hibiki, we past by popeye's and boy was it crowded! think most pple din know it existed in changi airport many years back liao (tink when i was in my teens have already) :) its chicken is not too bad, a change if you get tired of KFC but there is another fried chicken place which existed in my teens which is still around today... it arnold's chicken located in city plaza... their chicken is not bad as the skin is pretty crispy and flavourful... they do delivery to limted places and marine parade is one of them *grins*... you know, sometimes it seems the ones with the better business acumen, are the ones who refrain from opening too many branches of their resturants, this way, they can maintain better QC and also at the same time, consumers would not be so easily jerlak of their food... couple of weeks back we held a farewell lunch for agnes at house of sundanese food, i'm all praise for them, food was good and the atmosphere was wonderful... decor was simple but yet it exuded a certain resort feel that for a moment it din feel like i was in boat quay but some bali resort *smiles* ... btw, there are only 2 HOSF in SG :) hope they stay that way... besides, if you know and understand the s'pore market, we like to try new things but due to the follow-what-the-joneses-do mentality, but we also tend to lose interest fast when we realised that its nothing special afterall... that's y its hard to sustain a biz if you go along wif the hype... there must be quality and unique-ness and a hard-to-imitate business plan... e.g. werner's oven :)

continuing from my dinner with CK, after dinner, we look see in the tourist retail shop in s'pore flyer... unless u r a carrot head, you might think twice buying some stuff in there... saw a simple pearl necklace designed with a couple of swarvosky crystals gg for $1,000 plus *amazed look* !!! wah lao, i can get dunno how many in chinatown lor!!! oh well...

anyway, we went to pick up SF at her workplace and proceeded to selegie to meet SH for rochor dou hua... after that we went to mr bean cafe (which all of us, other then SH, thot it was the mr bean dou hua place, much to the amusement and frustration of SH *lol* as we had alot of miscomm before we met him) as SF needed a light meal =) somehow i enjoy spending time with them, yes, there may be chat topics in some conversations which we cant join in here and there but i guess at the end of the day sharing a laugh is what warms me... when close colleagues leave, it is not a goodbye for me cos i believe what made us close in the first place is the trust and unspoken understanding that we will still hang out, though not as frequent (it can be couple of months or even years!), and continue to share laughter and stories as though we last met yest... good friendships withstand the test of time and though one may not tell everything to a fren now, bits of such info will be release later but it will make us closer as well...

though i may try to dress young (yeah, hate the fact to come across as adult-looking esp on weekends... form of escapism from being an adult the rest of the week *smiles*), it is not a reflection of my level of maturity... never judge a book by its cover is truly apt... if you know me well, u know tt i may joke and come across as a blondie sometimes but it's not always the case is it? :) maybe its all thanks to my peranakan blood that i can portray many different sides depending on the circumstances... tee might agree with me on this one :) becos peranakan blood is champo with asian and european so that's y we can most of the time adapt to situations :) i dont find a need to explain myself sometimes esp for those who cant get the most obvious hints... like i said, obvious liao so should catch the drift but no lor... so y bother waste my time in explaining anyway? *shrugs*

winter seems to have toned down in her naughty-ness... made me worried a bit cos i thot she may be ill but i guess its not :)

geez, been at this for like over an hr... have drained my brain of my thots accumulated these couple of days... which is good as i can have new thots in my brains in the coming days =) dragon is sending his mum to JB hence, i have my me time for whole of today :)

now... what's for lunch?

Wilbur the Nonya

Today was the 1st time i caught ch 5’s sayang sayang and i must say that’s it’s not bad :) have been quite sceptical all this time hence i did not make an attempt to watch it but happen to leave the tv on while i was doing my chores and the prog came on... kheng hua and james lee nonya & baba portrayal of a nonya and baba bitching and scolding was spot on and it made me tear... u must be thinking that i must be crazy to tear when it’s suppose to be a light hearted prog but a longing feeling came onto me... how i long to hear all that bibik talk & gossip, see my relatives wear the nonya baju and sarong, experience once again the peranakan culture which i was so accustomed to when i was a kid living with my paternal grandma... it struck me that no more will i have the chance to experience all these and what was worse was that i was losing my peranakan way of talking... my vocab seems to be getting limited by day... so much so that i started talking to the doggies in baba talk *grins* ... it’s sad to think that my peranakan heritage is lost with me =(

Talk abt nostalgia, there is still a mama shop in the block next to mine... it seems that the shop might one day be gone especially when we have a couple of giant supermarkets like cold storage and NTUC nearby, not to mention 2 7-11 convenience store... i am one who is for preservation of the old way of life and i hate the thot that one day all the stuff i was once familiar would be gone 4ever... pple nowadays don’t treasure anything at all (and that includes relationship with frens, family etc) and its maybe cos that’s y we become so self-centred, selfish, rude, oblivious to pple around us... it’s pathetic enough that we need to have campaigns to be courteous, spend more time with family, having ministers to tell us to be gracious, etc... speaking of which, the recent tvc on the family which was directed by Malaysian lady is truly touching... yeah i know that i contradict myself by criticising abt these campaigns but since its already done, i find it worth commending... ok, i tear again when i caught the whole tvc (father and daughter) earlier just now ... either mediacorp have perfected the technology of sending smells through tv or maybe i’m having a mid-life crisis, gotta face it that i’m old *grunt*

I hope ssc works out, i need the change... will see how it goes :)

Yay, few of us old poly classmates (some became ex colleagues too *lol*) will gather at ccf’s house next sat... will finally see her little gorgeous boy who starred opp zoe tay in the abbott milk commercial :) ccf is also another cool mum... she makes cupcakes and sells them online (www.littlefairyland.com)... truly happy that things are gg well for her... i sincerely feel happy for my close pals when i hear things are gg well for them *smiles with eyes closed*...

Darn! the cramps i get for my toes and calves once in a blue moon seem to be recurring quite frequently now... it’s bloodie painful... the toes curl up and when u try to straighten, they hurt real bad =( ... apparently i might be deficient in potassium so i need to start eating bananas (the yellow kind hor!!! Dirty minds... tsk tsk) which is high in them...but the problem is i only like pisang raja which me thinks is from m’sia, they are smaller but softer in flesh and it doesn’t give a siap siap after-taste which i get from eating those bloodie del monte brand *scratches tongue*... i need to drink lots of water too... aye... so troublesome... signs of aging? The skin under my eyes seems to sag... hoping for a miracle alternative to cosmetic surgery or botox... dream on Wilbur!

Shoulders and back starting to ache... the dining table and chair not suited for my using of vaio, but haven’t really been actively looking for a suitable portable table and ergonomic chair... maybe see whether dragon boy is keen to pop by ikea this weekend...

Alamak! dunno what happen to nesvita, all supermarkets, minimarts etc don’t have them... i no choice have to get omega plus... lighter taste but doesn’t seem to have iron and folic acid which nesvita has... i don’t read papers often, only just when i lay them on the ground for lining of the doggies pee and poo hahaha... (usu the headlines would intrigue me and i would just stand at the foot of the pee area to read the article =)) so if you guys see a report of the recall of nesvita due to some ban ingredient etc pls update me hor... kam sia zuay zuay =)

Wilbur says Thank You!

i escape from life for an hour yest... thanks hossan, for entertaining me... i'm so thankful there are entertainers like u around... so i ever leave Singapore for good, the thing i would miss most would be you, dim sum dollies and a couple of other local acts...

maybe its my peranakan background that made me enjoy hossan's piano playing and singing... u know, macham like talentime like tt... ah... the good old days when my grandma and mum winnie would tune in to such shows on tv...

hossan is truly talented and funny... though he is suppose to exude funny-ness but he manage to touch my heart when he sung those sad love songs... gotta hand it to him *applause* i very much like dragon boy to share my sentiments about hossan but he can be really stubborn... he doesnt like hossan's lifestyle that's why....

btw, hossan sang with his brother... not too sure whether he is younger or not but hossan definitely looks better... i kinda tink hossan got botox injects thats y he doesnt look his age :) his bro's singing not as strong and lively as hossan, he's supposedly to be a dj at 938 live though...

btw, i stopped by my neighbourhood's 7-11 before heading home... a woman made me pretty mad and nope she did not do anything to me but to the cashier... i wanted to pay for my items but the cashier was counting coins so he told me to give him a min of which i replied:"yah, sure :) no problem" then comes along this piece of shit face lady (no apologies for calling her this as she is deserving of the title) wanting to pay for her purchase... she had a slight irritated look when she saw the cashier oblivious to her (as he was still busy with the counting) and she ask whether she could pay, noticing that the cashier was trying not to lose count of the coins, i replied that he is counting coins... of which she immediately said:"it shouldnt be at the mercy of the customers!" i was taken aback at her reply. the cashier heard it too and his face was sour... a few secs later, he kept the coins away and attended to me... i had wanted to say 2 him out loud that some pple are just idiots but i held back my tongue... anyway, since she was queing behind me i made it a point to dig for my cash slowly etc... bloodie piece of arse... it's already getting harder to stay in this country with the high cost of living and all... it doesnt help when u have such pple making it worse then it already is... to hell with them man...

its seems like a stay home saturday today... i packed away some of my old clothes for giving away... damn i really inherit my grandma's habit of liking to keep lots of stuff and not throwing them away (my nyonya grandma use to say 'sayang' to throw away)... sometimes cos i never know when i these will be useful while other times its cos the stuff brings back memories =P ... but i managed to clear some clothes, so it's an minor achievement *grin*

CK looks more funky now which is way way cool then he was before :) met him yest as we went to watch hossan together... i almost din see him cos dunno y i was still expecting gelled down hair with glasses *lol*...

recently i have been sending in compliments, feedback when i get good service... nothing beats when u noe pple appreciate your service, it will kinda spur u on to do better... anyway, its my way of countering the mass complaints or idiotic behaviour of easily disgruntled pple here... hope this small gesture goes a long way :)

btw, if my BMI is normal, there is no reason to be alarmed and comment that i'm disappearing! get a hold of yourselves lah pple... some pple are blessed being naturally thin while others like me tend to put on weight easily cos of my family genes and hence i have to make the effort to be slim but as long as i'm of healthy weight and not freaking bony like calista flockhart or laura flynn boyle, there is no cause for concern hor...

geeze feeling sleepy... think zzz monster paying me a visit... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Wilbur's Roots

had dinner wif tee at miss clarity's at tanjong katong... tee was late and i was standing outside the cafe waiting... wasnt a good idea cos right smack opp the road was a pretty huge ktv lounge with a screaming neon sign... somehow it made the dick heads that walked past me think that i was waiting to be picked up *snarl* not tt i was dressed skimpyly lor... bunch of ass...

anyway, somehow those cheena uncles be it taxi driver or hawker somehow think tt all gals who dress up nicely i.e dress, make-up, pumps like v weak , dainty or got 'xiao jie' attitude... NOT all lor!!! couple of times when i'm in a dress, i feel that these hawker uncles think i 'xiao jie' so they have this look that seem to undermine my ability to carry my food by myself when i place an order... sheesh... if i note the sign that says 'self service', i would cary the food myself but some stupid uncle sometimes assume that i wont and once i place an order, they would immediately and grumpily remind me to carry my food... wtf... but guess cant blame them for thinking this way entirely cos i bet tt there would be some gu niangs that really yaya to these hawker uncles bah... wat to do?!

been a while (like a couple of years while haha) since i ate escargots... i used to have them at jack's place but after like eating them almost every week, i somehow stopped eating them... anyway, at clarity's we decided to order the snails... the seasoning was ok i guess but i wish they had more seasoning cos the inner part of the snail did not get the seasoning so a bit too original taste when i came to the end part *green* ... their food ok lah and prices i think r super reasonable :)

after makan, con't to chat with tee... good session as we talked abt being peranakan and how baba families all got problem one haha... i guess why i think differently is cos of my heritage and upbringing which is very unlike a typical pure chinese family... and maybe me being mixed with the different nationalities of my forefathers also play a part on why i'm a tad more open minded *grin*... sometimes i wish i could trace my family tree, it will be damn interesting lor ... dutch, english, indonesian, chinese, malay ... wah lao but my chest area have to take after the chinese trait *...* bian bian ...

geez, SH is leaving and literally on a jet plane (but maybe after a 1 year or so after he has grasp the practical :)) ... sure gonna miss having mr pakistani spikey head around but i'm truly happy for him tt he found his interest and maybe his calling :)total of 9 years man but he will haf good prospects if he can withstand the stress, pressure and demands of the job... ALL the BEST dude!

eye lid shutting down le... hope i can con't watever i had wanted to jot in the next week or so :) chiao for now!

Wilbur got her Wellies!

yay, my white wellies with bright green polka dots finally arrived from my purchase from ebay uk =) now all i need is rain, rain, rain waahahaaha so that i can splash the puddles without my feet getting wet *grins* ... there are a bit of print defects though but guess no choice bah, not feasible to send it back =p overall still quite pleased with my purchase *happy face*

Wilbur's Amazement

it's getting harder for me to accept how pple think and behave in this country... both dragon n me really tink tt its best to move out of this country and stay in places like BKK or japan (if we have the $$$) when we retire but recently, i have been contemplating to move even sooner... only prob is money and family...

i cant believe how some parents are got so worked up with the saving gaia ad of the mannequin boy being mutilated and mediacorp have to pull it off air... yah, your kid is scared then teach him not to be or explain to him... if not just cover his bloodie eyes lah!!! i grew up watching horror shows though i was not suppose to, of course i was super scared and had nightmares but u grow out of it... so what is it wif u dumb ass parents???!!! u cant protect the kid 4ever and sheltering them from such images only does more damage... imagine if the kid witness a death by accident where the head or body is all messed up, what r u gg to do then? really some parents have pea brains... if you notice, how come expats never complain abt such things? thats cos they are more exposed and are far more far sighted than the truly cheena parents some are... u go and think lah, kid having nightmare or saving the earth more important... no earth, kid no need to have nightmare also will die... f**king idiots...

u can say i wont understand cos i dont have kids, but the way i was brought up is enough for me to understand... i had a pretty strict upbringing and there were times i felt unloved and even contemplate suicide when i was a teenager, i wasnt spoiled though i was in a way the only child but being in this kind of situation made me stronger and taught me to be independent which i'm actually thankful for... my life hasnt always been perfect, in fact i consider it tumultuous but if i had to re-live my life over again, i would still choose the same cos if not i would not have been what i'm today... if i ever have a kid, i would only protect him if he ever comes close to danger but otherwise, he shall eat off from the table etc... being overly protective is more detrimental than u can imagine, it weakens our spirit, character... see how kids easily get the hand, foot and mouth diseases... they are not able to pick up stuff from the floor or table and pop it back in their mouth, hence, there body does not build up the natural defences, thereby weakening their immune system...

so tired of how pple can be so narrow minded, short sighted etc... it's really stifling just witnessing such incidents... i want out ...

before i wizz off to snooze land, i'm thankfuk to tee for recommending dr goh... he atcually waived the consultation fees when both me and sf went to see him just now... one hell of a doc!!!

Wilbur Po

watched kungfu panda today at the cinema. yes, u heard me rite, at the cinema *grins* ... it's been a while since both dragon boy n me caught a movie at the theatre, if u guys know us well, we have been catching movies from dvds *winks* cos dragon boy is a bit of a kiam kanna (direct translation - salty dried fruit *lol*) ... he suggested tt we catch the movie at a not so popular theatre, which was damn shiok cos other than a family of noisy kids, we had the whole cinema to ourselves!!! for once, i could prop my feet onto the front seat *happy* and i din have to shift in my seat uncomfortably cos no big heads were in front to block me lalalala *joyous* ... maybe my hormones are still imbalance cos i just ended my period but i have been pretty emotional the past couple of days, tearing without much logic and somemore could not control the emotion and tears... even when i watched kungfu panda, there were some scenes which actually touched me and tears welled up in my eyes *shrugs* ...

been having some minor frustrations wif dragon boy... he thinks tt i'm too harsh with winter but the thing is, he is not around much to see winter behave badly... she becomes rebellious when i shower her with love n attention... i guess that's the thing with pple, when we witness a single display of hostility, we tend to think that the person showing the hostility shouldnt been so petty etc, but if you did not experience what this person has gone through for him/her to act n this manner, it is best not to comment as both of you will risk being upset with each other... i can be pretty direct with my words sometimes when i need to defend my actions and it would usu cause conflict... i feel very frustrated when my behaviour and actions are misinterpreted esp by dragon boy whom i always assumed is to know me well but apparently sometimes he doesnt =p... he should by now understand tt i'm not usu very hostile or unfriendly but when my patience is worn thin after repeated trying by the same incident or person, it will push my hostile button... i had always expected him to support my actions but usu that's not the case =( he would comment which gets me upset... *sigh* sometimes, i find tt i would support him for his actions and if i dont agree, i wld just hold back my comments cos i know tt it might cos him to be even more upset so i just want him to do the same *roll eyes* ... MAN really from Mars!!!

Wilbur can see Venus!

aye, i always have been fascinated with the night sky... i always see a bright steady dot of light in the sky that's always close to the moon these couple of weeks, it's not a star but actually Venus *excitedly*! yeps! hands up those of u that know that this bright dot is a planet! amazing how we can see this planet with the naked eye... lately it's very bright and apparently i read tt its around this time when it the brightest!!! so cool... dragon boy doesnt believe me when i tell him its a planet, tells me it's a satellite *rolls eyes*.... anyway, me being a libra, love and appreciate all things beautiful and this is definitely one of the universe wonders which i very much appreciate... venus is like 26 million miles away from earth yet we can see it!

at other times of the year, the other steady dot of light would be other planets but venus is the most alluring cos it's the brightest of the lot... somehow looking at it gives me hope (maybe hence the phrase 'glimmer of hope'?) ... i guess i like the sky so much cos i know that beyond it, is the vast vast universe which have not been tainted by mankind unlike earth... caught a bit of the news on tv mobile... 2 orang utans got to sit the s'pore flyer, a publicity to make pple aware that we need to conserve the wildlife which is rapidly diminishing (though i dont get the part abt apes sitting the flyer and conservation *shrugs*)... it reported that only 7,500 orang utans are left in the world and increasing forest fires in sumatra contribute to the diminishing population... i was struck with grief and sadness almost immediately when i heard this... my heart cried as i imagine the apes being killed alive by the fires... at this moment, i really din believe the notion that 'one person could make a difference'... feel hapless, useless and ashamed, am i resigned to the fact tt nothing can be done to help the animals? i mean even if i wanted to help, wat can i do to stop the fires? pple here, including myself, seem to be more concern abt managing our own livelihood and seeking material things... though i don't splurge on luxury items but i am too guilty of seeking things that are wants and not needs... it saddens me to think we have become as such... bad news everywhere now... global warming etc... guess maybe a higher power is experimenting on us and observing how long more before we destroy ourselves when we get too smart for our own good... *heavy heart*

my flu from 3 weeks ago is still lurking in my bloodie system... lots of phlegm in my throat, making me cough irrationally... i need to like spit every now and then, damn gross and troublesome *grumble* ... just waiting for that mother-of-all clot that once i spit it out of my system, i'm cleared! doesnt feel like its coming out anytime soon though *aaarrrggghhh*....

btw, met up wif lyn n V at chin huat steamboat at novena on wed... they are my sec school mates... lynn is still flawlessly pretty as ever!!! u cant imagine her having 3 kids liao (3rd one is in the womb) ... ever heard of a 7 mths pregnant lady having a small shot of vodka at balaclava and puffs occasionally *lol* this is she :) gives meaning to the phrase "life is short" - i like! V is thinking of getting her 6th tattoo in US Miami ink but she wants a goat pic... hmmmm... anyway, she already so full of charm and charisma that even the shanghai gal models throw themselves at her and call her *shuai shuai* lol... she is like chris ho to me... epitome of cool with capital Os in the middle... as much as i would like to get a tattoo, dragon boy doesnt like me to have one, not a big deal for me lah... remember way back there was those cheap pale pink chewing gum with a teddy bear face on the different colour wrappers, on the other side of the wrapper was a robot 'tattoo'? we would transfer the tattoo onto our hand usu, by wetting the wrapper? can someone come up wif a super giant version of this wrapper but with better design, of course, for pple like me??? hahahahhaha.... lyn n V said that tattoos are a taboo for some cos it can change your luck to either very very good or very very bad and usu it will affect the stability if you are in a relationship... hmmm... i can be pan tang so i guess i wont want to take chances for now... esp if it would make my relationship turn bad =p ....

been online shopping lately, bought a pair of wellies from ebay london and eagerly waiting for it to arrive... bought it cos i thot it will be fun to wear during very wet days and besides, it will keep my feet dry... so practical and yet it fits into my change of style again :) it's white with big light green dots... guess this way, not too loud and easier to match clothes... did a whole lot of online purchases as well which i shall not go into details but think it's whole every cent spent! damn, i hope my habit of buying too many items which I do not have a chance to wear is not coming back full force... yeah, i ought to shoot myself... again seeking unwanted wants =(

better get some shut eye... clover was whining earlier, guess she sort of knows that by keeping late nights, i wont be able to wake up tmr =P ... aiyah, but how do i explain to her that sometimes, i just need to pen down my thots else if too many is bottled up i wont like explode lor...

Wilbur still under the weather...

been exactly a week since i visited my doc for flu and the works =p ... completed my medication a couple of days ago but the symptoms still persists... went to the doc again today and got stronger medication plus antibiotics... total damage for this damn flu virus? $69 for the 2 visits! medical cost really ex lor... heart pain man... usu i would self medicate but this time, its really serious, my mucus was all yellow goo *too bad if u feel sick from imagination of my condition... lol*...

some pple have been complaining abt the noise from TV mobile... apparently they have never encountered passengers who talk v loudly and non-stop throughout the entire bus journey whether over the phone or to the person beside them... i was caught in such a situation a couple of times and trust me, TV mobile is nothing compared to those goondu buggers who have no bloody sense of consideration towards other passengers... yest i was suay enuf to have to sit through listening a bloody woman talk over the phone to her publicist or something... wah lao i really felt like striking her with a super sharp heel so that she will be killed instantly and from the looks of the other passengers sitting near her, they too seem to share the same thots as me... she kept gg on and on and repeating her sentences, think worse of all she spoke like she v smart and helpful like that, cannot stand!!! maybe also her voice not that pleasant... if she had the angelic voice of chloe agnew the teen prodigy then maybe we wont find it offensive... geez...

went to trim my hair yest... it was an impromptu action as I was shopping at far east plaza and i notice this salon was still open though it was abt 845pm and it had a japanese name 'haru' lol ... paid $38, find it ex but i really wanted a hair cut as my fringe was causing me to have neck aches cos' it was too long and it blocked my side views so much so that i would have to tilt my head uncomfortably occasionally... anyway, the hairstylist was a male and his name is Kenji though he seemed m'sian to me hee... anyway, they closed at 9pm but cos of me he had to close at 9.30pm... felt bad lah but i think $38 covers the inconvenience besides i told him i dont need to have a wash though he offered :) pleased with he hair cut... i have fringe!!! not possible a couple of months back when my chin was blunt haha... but losing weight recently brought some sharpness back =) but my face still lop-sided =( one side seems to be puffier... seriously, the right side of me is full of imperfections... evidence? right ear is folded and juts out if the hair is too thin around there, my right eye is lazy, my right ankle is fatter (know this cos I those shoe straps that goes round), my right elbow has a darker discolouration at he groove, my right thigh has very obvious varicose veins popping, my eczema happens more on my right feet and now even my right pit, my right leg got the burnt mark from the lousy acupuncture treatment... dont think i need to go on... my right profile is not my best... in fact find it ugly... but guess i have to embrace these imperfections... no choice right?! *sticks out tongue*

my plan is to get out of hell after June... no matter if i'm not offered a job from my applications... i intend maybe to just work at some fast food joint like MOS burger or Carl's Jr for the time being to take a break and still have some income... when can i win like some big sum of money so that i can find some senang work for the rest of my life??? day dreaming again!!! i'm also toying with the idea tt maybe i will ask weiren if he needs my help at his soon-to-be-opened cafe in july, of course no favours lah, will still be paid a waitress pay that he is offering =p

though i'm not well but i'm happy to spend time with my 2 babies =) ... clover is seriously adorable and likable... winter still irritates me sometimes but i hope she will grow up to be more obedient... one thing abt big dogs is that u can hug them real hard... same goes for hamsters... i always like syrians cos they can fill your whole palm and i can gently rub noses with shinobi milky and snowy... dwarf hamsters more swift and agile so harder to catch them and they seem to be more wary then syrians... too me, holding a syrian more shiok than dwarf lah... syrian more affectionate =)

sigh, wanted to get those ballet-like shoes from far east but those that sold in the stores now not as nice or comfy as the ones i bought previously... the ones i have now are really super comfy but the red pair is spoiled while the under part of the black pair is broken, it can still be worn... though i have the makings of imelda macos for my collection of shoes, i tend to stick to a certain pair when it is comfy and complements my dressing style at a certain point in time... like now, i like wearing mini skirts and the ballet pumps helps to balance the look from becoming too casual or campy...

told myself to stop buying clothes but yest i saw those vintage tees which i have seen in those fashion mags... queens couture is like selling them at a bomb.. $60? but i came by this stall along orchard that were selling them and very much like those available in queens but at a fraction of the price... they were having a sale so they are selling 2 for $27 else one would be like $18 for one... i wanted to get 2 initially but the tee base colours v dull like grey, maroon so in the end i got a 'tide' in pale yellow and the other is a guy's tee for dragon boy... not too sure whether he will like it cos the tee is for bikers, got 'motorbike' printed on the front but he drives lor =p ...

time to get some shut eye... gg to hell again tmr...

Wilbur speaks....

all was well these couple of years but u had to return and invoke the part of me that was dormant all these while... the way i think now has nothing to do with anyone but the experiences i went thru these couple of years... i have kept quiet all these while just to prevent things from turning ugly but you had to disrupt the balance and now my peace-loving self now wants to take a backseat and send forth my justice self to take over... matters will turn ugly for justice to prevail but if you keep pushing you leave me with no choice...
the talk we had recently made me feel that u still care but no one will believe that u still do or that it was sincere as they werent present, its hard for me to convince them as i know they have my interest at heart... i cant only tell them to trust me no matter what decision i make... i just need their support... i may make the wrong decision but i just dont want pple to get hurt and that includes you...
i agree to take over all that is owing though to it may seem unfair to others because i dont want things to turn out ugly ... money to me is just a mean of basic survival but other than that it is nothing more to me... so even it's unfair in the eyes of others as long as u are appease it doesnt matter where the scale tips...
i guess now its a wait n see... i dont appear as gullible now then when u knew me back then cos life was simple last time and there was no necessity or reason for me to bring up my act... but you dont seem to get all these... you mind is still naive that u are willing to fall prey to those that others despise... i dont know how to make u realise your folly other then subtle reminders and by prayer... i guess both of us are wary of each other cos the pple beside us are telling us not to trust or believe each other... but after the talk, something tells me tt u are sincere... i hope u find tt wif me too...

Wilbur - Sex Guru?

revelation when i was travelling in a cab...
the male anatomy can be liken to a key whilst the female sexual organ, a keyhole... finding the right key may not always be easy but once the key fits... it's hello, heaven! *hysterical laughter* ...

seriously, i find physical intimacy very important between couples... you may not always get along wif each other outside the bedroom but if both derived extreme pleasure in bed then it can keep the relationship going strong... gals should try to loosen up and not be a prude... blame it on our culture or upbringing that sex is not to be enjoyed but merely as a mean to pro-create... i know some gals will cringe when they see porn cos they find certain acts disgusting, erm, you can say bye bye to a long lasting rel'ship esp if your guy is a full blooded male... women who are willing to loose all their inhibitions will have the last laugh...

human beings are such that we are attracted to those who we perceive as good looking and if our partner is both gorgeous and a pleasure in bed, we tend to want the rel'ship to keep going even though sometimes the partner may not have the best of character... maybe that's y some gals hold on to a rel'ship though the guys are jerks =p ...

my advice to the females "dont shy, dont shy" ... and make sure you maintain your figure and appearance as when you guys 1st met... you have to make an effort esp if you really love him... dont trust when he says i love you no matter how u look... it's like him telling u that u r not fat... so please, make an effort to look good and please your man (of course he has to do the same for you lah)... doesnt matter that we are in the 20th century, you gotta be are smart enough to play the game to engage your man :) ... of course assuming that all other factors remain constant *lol*

have been there, done that *winks*

Wilbur is joyous!!!

david cook is the new american idol!!! woo hooo!! cant wait for his cd to be out... it will be the 1st time ever i actually buy an idol cd man... cook is really talented beyond words thus deserves to win...

Wilbur's Adventures!

never once had i experience so many emotions and encounters over one weekend... u know how sometimes things are all peaceful and tranquil and then WHAM! BAM! bad news comes and spoils the peace and you aint sure when the turmoil will end??!!! that's what is happening to me now... looks like my past caught up with me and i have to bear with a whole lot of inconveniences which i dunno will last till when... its frustrating to know that the rights that i have been doing to correct the wrong i did in the past is being ignored... aarrrrggghhh... bloodie idiot!!!

i dont blame all these incidents on God, really!... i'm really thankful to have dragon boy by my side and for being so understanding that i really have to pinch myself everytime to make sure that i'm not dreaming... things are gg pretty well wif us and i'm grateful to the heavens for letting me experience wat is love and to be loved... it was not all smooth sailing but at least now it is and it can help counter the bad patch tt i'm gg thru, if not i wld just crumble faster than u can say bread crumbs...

btw, the mrt trail was fun though i was not out field in action but in the room sms-ing away for like 3 hrs... saw the goondu side of some pple, cant believe them leh!!! gabra and blur... how can we trust them to serve the people???!! *slaps forehead* ... good grief! anyway, sat was a super rush and busy day... travelled here, there and everywhere... bought birthday pressie and cake for dragon boy at parkway at the end of the day... the 'butch' at inqbox was super nice and helpful... she si bei stylo leh, got tattoo on her whole hand... she helped me with choosing the cuff links =)

felt a tad bit upset that dragon boy did not have a great birthday, he nearly got into an accident and we din do well at prawning also =p not to mention that i had to drop the bad news on him... but luckily things looked up a bit yesterday all except prawning cos we only caught 2 and dinner at ikea cos it was freaking packed and pple were sooooooo selfish and horrible!! got into a bit of action while on our way home... encountered a dumb ass and his sidekick, we are hoping tat we can teach them a great big lesson they are dying for... dont blame ask cos they are really asking for it man... stupid f*s... or u gen them till they foam in their mouth... dont know that we are actually older than we look... tsk tsk...

Wilbur's getting out of the sty

working in the same office for the past 10 plus years, there are of course times when i made an attempt to leave but of course it never materalised... either cos i was not ready to change to a new environment, pay cut or the job itself was not appealing... seems like many excuses hahaha... at each point in time i wanted to leave, it din feel right... i recalled last year i so much wanted to quit after a baseless scolding session from voldemort but eventually decided against it cos i din want to leave ivy and SH in the lurch as renovations was undergoing... i always feel obligated towards ivy as i know the amount of pressure put on her and the kind of shit she takes in for us... good begets good so i have been putting on hold my leaving as i know i can still be of help to pple like SH and ivy in bid to lessen their load... these are the kind of support amongst some of us in office and always pulls me to con't to stay on... like yest, SH, Ee, YQ and myself were the only ones left in office and we all started chatting and laughing... it's a warm and nice feeling knowing that we can all just happily chat on topics such as marriage etc when we dont usu work together let alone eat lunch together...

lately i have this sense of feeling that its time to take my leave... there have been major changes to the org chart... ivy's no longer handling operations... which seems to be the right time for me... never once have i thot of my farewell words to voldermort and ivy but it came to me a couple of days back... i have learned alot all these years and these experiences have enriched my life in one way or another, i never felt any regret joining this office... it provided me what education alone cannot do... the new pple nowadays all come with a dont like, then quit attitude, which is sadly why they don't pick-up skills that cannot be taught but comes with experience... i'm not one who praises oneself but there are times when i find that i can handle situations better than some of those with higher education but the sad thing is that i'm not paid according to how i use my brain... which is why i'm still very bitter abt J... the disparity in income in comparison to the amount of work and thinking she puts in really tips the scale so much that it looks like it can never be set right... as a librian, such injustice all the more drives me to wanna get out...

Wilbur's Journey to the West ;)

calm piggy travelled with fiery dragon to the west today *chuckles*... it's been ages since we travelled out of the laid back east nest *grins*... visited qian hu fish farm, stopped by a couple of other fish farms and vegetation farms and then to farmart... the weather was great today as it wasnt hot and humid like the past weekends... even at 12pm, though there was sunlight, the air was cool and breezy while we were at east coast with the 2 monkeys i.e. clover n winter haha... i din even perspire while walking the dogs! btw we drove to east coast actually cos we wanted to lunch at carl's jr and we didnt want to tire the doggies out hahaha (guess that might come as a lame excuse, we just have to admit that we were lazy lah *lol*)... we has thot that we could eat at carl's jr (the free flow of salsa sauce and freshly chopped onions is what entices us to eat there :)) with the doggies if we set outside (alfresco) but no lor, they had a no pets allowed sign, it sucks man... looks like only kenny is accommodating to dog owners =p ... in the end we decided ta pao from carl's... carl's was super busy today man, waited for some time for my order to be ready, but no matter cos' it was amusing seeing the supervisor yelling and chasing the kitchen in a subtle gordon ramsey style... speaking of which, i adore gordon for his profanities and sarcasm in hell's kitchen...

while i got back to the car where dragon was waiting with the monkeys, dragon boy was flipping thru the street directory to check how to get to farmart but he could not find farmart in the directory... girls, this is where u might like to pay attention *smiles*... i offered in a non-insisting manner to look it up in the street directory but of course guys sometimes think that we gals suck at such things so he just con't to flip thru the directory, i din press on *impt to note* and flipped thru the sunday times to read instead :) after a couple of minutes, i subtly offered again and this time he relented but of course he had to start driving when he passed me the directory (did i mention that i might suffer from giddiness when i read in moving vehicles??), oh well, in the end i found it kekeke *gals,10, guys, 0* not because gals are smarter but rather we are more patient and detailed... i actually went thru all the categories when i found it :)

btw, was impressed with qian hu cos they have expanded quite extensively since i last visited the place a couple of years back... their farm was totally neat, clean and dry which is not like what the usual old traditional fish farms are like... they had a wide wide wide array of fresh water fishes and what truly touched me was that there are some fishes with major deformities (like the arowna i saw with seriously bended body) but they con't to rear the fishes and did not put them up for sale (there were not for sale signs next to these fishes)... i wld think that some others might just kill them just because it's practical to do so esp when you are running a business... Buddha would be so proud of them cos its really practising his teachings of not killing any life... they really earn my respect and admiration... 100 brownie pts from me =) oh yeah, dragon boy asked me whether i wanted to try the fish cleansing feet treatment which was available but after seeing tons of pple sharing the same pond where little dumb fishies will nibble at their feets to rid of the dead skin cells, i decided not too liao... eh! a bit unhygienic rite??!! *eeewwwww*

at the vegetation farm, there was like a mini mini market that sold fresh fruits and vegetables, not a whole lot of variety though but it was damn bloodie cheap wor! i bought like 5 or 6 pieces of jap sweet potatoes (heh, eating one rite now after i boiled it) and 2 reasonable sized carrots at total price of $2.40! unbelievable man!!

most pple at the farms which i seen today are so un-tainted wif the material aspects of life (other then qian hu lah) ...they seem to earn just enough for a simple livelihood... i wish i could be like them... some of them stay in those single storey houses like the ones u see in m'sia with stray dogs as their pets... simple way of life that was brought about with the absence of education... such irony... here i am with an education but it brings about much work stress and it somehow made me to want material things... doesnt education sound like the forbidden apple which eve ate? if we didnt take it then, we should not have to suffer all these depression that work and life brings cos we wont know and understand too much... but alas, most of us in society are suffering... *hangs head*

sometimes gg to such ulu places bothers me cos i see alot of strays... its ok if they are fed but there seems to be some who have scour for food... my heart breaks each time i witness such scenes... that's y dragon boy would pull me away cos i will literally break down and tear... i feel so hapless... sometimes i rather they be put to sleep so they wont have to go through such a hard suffering life... it isnt fair to them... they get no help not like us humans... spca cant do much as well cos they dont have the resources (money, manpower and space) to do so... *hangs head low*

last stop at the west was farmart, nothing interesting really other than a prawning site... also i witness a husky being barricade and chained outside a pet shop... it was howling lor... so poorthing, was pissed that the pet shop didnt put it in the shop where there was air condition cos there wasnt much air outside!!! my darlings dont get air con but got fan hor... and my place is pretty cool... freaking idiot pet shop!!!

we went to AMK hub's NTUC to get groceries and boy was it crowded!!! it's like these pple have news that Armageddon is coming during the week and are stocking up... geeze... i hate crowds! esp when majority of them all have cow sense and jam up the place with their trolleys... arrrghhh...

time to hand my washing... to all a very good morning hahahaha cos its like 1am liao =)

Wilbur's Discernment

sf used to joke about being colleagues and frens... in mock anger she would always asked 'colleague or friend?' when we irritated her =) ... i kinda missed those times when sf, huat, xj were in office... they the 1st seriously fun and nice batch of accountants i have come across all these years... u cant even believe tt they are from ntu! they are really not your typical quiet sort of accountants... all that is left of their batch is SH... he is seriously super nice tt i have no qualms helping him no matter how busy i am... recently i kinda missed his presence in office... very much so yest... before u think tt i'm infatuated with him, i'm not!... i miss him as a fren...other than ivy and a few others whom i frequently bitch to in office, SH is the only one who i guess i can just open up to alot and really pepper my conversations with him with plenty of vulgarities =) ...

an incident yest revealed that really, there is a difference between those whom are real frens and just colleagues at work... a fren at work would offer to help u when they sense that you are stressed whilst a colleague would just be oblivious to the fact that u r so busy (although you explicitly tell them) and still not offer to do something which they are suppose to do in the 1st place...i was asked to offer suggestions for a birthday gift for c to give her on fri i.e tmr, of which i did and even provided the catalogue to f and p, later i was asked whether i could buy the gift but i said i was busy and suggested j to buy, j could not find the item online and p asked me how, i was super frustrated cos i would expect j to think of an alternative so i said tt i would buy ...f, p, and j all left by 630pm... would u fill totally upset if u were me? dont they think i dont want to leave early as well??!! but i have work and tons of email and now had to even get c's present!!! i left office at 11pm and din manage to get c's present until just now when i had the mind and time to browse thru the web... p, f and j is kinda closer to c but yet looks who is getting the gift??!!! still am disappointed and upset... i hate the fact tt i cant just be evil and not get the gift at all...

all these incidences have repercussions... so what if you observe religious practices?, it sometimes doesnt make u a better person, that's why like gil grissom i only believe in God and not religion... p and j are catholics but still the basic teachings of offering help to those in need are absent from their minds... p may be still young and sheltered so i may be quick to judge but j should display the behaviour of a catholic! j has been putting off some of the tasks that she is suppose to do for the past few months, it doesnt matter if she is the one solely getting the blame but she should know that she would get v i trouble as well...
some religions are just pulling pple in without giving pple time to think whether they ready to take on the roles and responsibility of being in the religion... for me, i dont think tt i'm ready, my shortcomings are still quite dominant but i take pride that i try my very best to be very aware of the pple and surroundings around me... i'm not perfect as i will still be mean to those i dislike but i will still be considerate like helping pple at work whenever i can, helping strangers pick up items they have dropped or standing aside for pple to walk ahead, thanking profusely for pple who hold the lift doors for me etc..
pple should only commit to a religion only when stop being selfish and can pray for others well-being as well... i wld think some pple just pray for themselves and not others ...

pets can be so much better than some humans i have encountered... they show gratitude back ...

sometimes work seems heavy but as long as you have frens at work, it helps to ease the stress and make life better...
if the pple i mentioned happen to read this blog, know that i'm not trying to make enemies but at least u should know why i'm pissed...

Wilbur is now playing ...

brings tears to my eyes when this song is played... one of the soundtrack for the perfect man starring hillary duff... cried at one part when this song was played at one scene... wasnt really a fan of hillary, much prefer lindsay lohan but in this movie, thot she was not bad too :)

Collide by Howie Day

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a frist impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

Wilbur's Loads of Crap ;D

it's one of those days where i sprout loads of crap... here's a couple ... read on only if u can tahan nonsense and gross-ness hor!
- thurs is labour day, the name suggest that its a day where we have to be labourious rather then a day of rest *sniggers*
- ee reminded tt its also called may day... why isn't there a shinwa day then *hysterical laughter*
- if toilet water can be converted to NEWater, hyflux should consider R&D on periods converting to NEWblood since there's always call to donate blood =P

anyway, winter saw the vet today, yay! the lump at her elbow is no biggie *wide smile* just some infection so the lump contains some fluid which should go off in couple of days after medication... otherwise, its off to surgery where the vet wil slit the lump for the fluid to ooze out and thereafter have to apply medication to prevent bacteria infection =p ... this little rascal really gives me loads of work man... just a couple of minutes back, dunno what the hell came into her and she pee-ed in front of my eyes at the dining area!!! idiot leh! their pee area is on the papers back at the kitchen! terror dog!

anyway, brought clover along too while on way to vet... i was like a freaking crazy mother lor, kept screaming and choking them cos they were walking all over the place while on the pavement near the main road... some pple turn back and look lor, dont be surprise if someone took a video and post in in stomp =s ... reason i was so harsh was cause the main road was super busy with cars and the way they walked might caused them to kena hit lor... usu. they are quite well behaved on the roads, its like one of those days they ki siao... grrrr....

these couple of days, general ho yit (rranslation from cantonese to english : freakng hot) has been lurking ard in the mornings!! si bei terrible man! after wiping dry from bathing, i will be sweating like a pig within seconds!!! hate it ma !!! looks like tmr will be sama sama =(

Wilbur's 2nd Life

seems like everyone into the 2nd life virtual game... i have kinda applied for the 2nd life id and password for ben and jerry's room but havent got down to trying it out yet and most prob wont cos my internet access is slow so most prob will tear my hair out waiting for the game to download... i can understand the fascination of the game, i mean u can be a nerd in real life but use a babe avatar in 2nd life and get laid and do wild unimaginable stuff *chuckles* it's a form of escapism which is fine but if you get too obsessed with it i.e. this being the real life that r leading then its super sad... there is so much to experience in the real world! maybe that's y we are lacking so much in social skills in today's society =(

maybe those militants who crave for power should be introduced to 2nd life... wars could be fought online hahah... still got bloodshed and gore but at least no real lives lost =p a far-fetched thot? well, tt is how i am lor... hippie who hopes for peace and tranquility in the world =)

actually my 2nd life is keeps me occupied already to wanna play 2nd life hahaha... my 2nd life is the life after work... during weekends, i dress very differently from the usual stifling work garb... sometimes i feel that gg to work for me is like acting... i have to assume a role of responsibility and maturity which is so adult... i hate having to be an adult 24-7... so boring and uncreative... no fun one... so thats why i let loose during the weekends - auntie dressed like teeny bopper *grins* ... i dont wanna loose that creative and imagination which i had more while i was a child... i have lost most of it and i cant afford to loose whatever of it i have left... i wanna stay fun and happy =) and it keeps me sane... thank god i still have frens who are like that!

most of pple at work dont see my other persona which is only apparent to dragon boy and my 2 huskies... i think they will be shocked lor... i'm pretty bad tempered and if you ever catch me in my worst, i may come across as crazy lor... haha... dragon boy is like that too... huge fight last weekend but we kissed and made up literally *laughs* ... it can be frustrating when a loved one dont see the effort you are taking to make the relationship work for the better and assume otherwise... but i guess when all tempers have cooled, and they are willing to listen, its amazing feeling when u finally manage to get your point across =) ... guess sometimes, the worst thing that spoils a relationship is assumption... but all's well if both hear each other out =)

bringing winter to the vet tmr... pretty worried for her as we noticed a growth at the joint of her front paw... no matter how angry i am with her, i still care for her... hope its benign *prays*...

getting the 2 darlings was a decision that i will never regret... they have brought me joy and companionship and at least my focus is shifted from mindless shopping of clothes and shoes to shopping goodies for them =) ... office aunties nag and nag abt me not wanting to have kids now... but at this current state, i'm happy having my doggies... nothing is missing in my life now... of course i do think abt having a kid but mostly cos i want to see how he/she will turn out with the combined look of dragon boy and me *lol* and nothing more... i dont wanna have kids with the hope of depending on them when i'm old and frail... dont tink it will happen lor when filial piety is taking a back seat in today's world... i cant stand parents who let their kids get away with murder, pampering them and at their beck and call... i have seen such scenarios and i really wanted to go up to the parents, whack the living senseless brain out of them and ask them 'what the hell is wrong with you??!!!'... if crime rates or abandon parents ever go up in the future, you know whom we have to thank for... dont get me started on parents who are rude, lack compassion and filial piety... i just hope they get what they deserve later on...

ok, enuf on anger topics =p gotta scoot now ... back is aching again... wassup??!!

Wilbur think David Lee Cook Rocks!

din manage to catch david lee cook's entire performance as I was tuned to CSI but i managed to catch snippets of his performance... extremely talented wor!!! i used to dislike him in the early stages as he came across as a bit yaya... he retorted simon's comments with an air of nonchalance tt i wanted to smack him! of course he is much better now =) hope he wins idol but then again you should know how these competitions are like, the good ones usu. dont win haha but their records will sell better than the winners :) such irony...

the moon is pretty bright today though it's not full... so pretty :) there's always this lone bright spot in the sky that doesnt twinkle like the rest... think it's mars or something... i like to gaze at it, find that it gives me peace of mind :)

for the 1st time today, ah fat clover jumped over winter when they were playing... she steady leh, was pretty proud of her cos usu. winter will be jumping over her, she not that kind that can be so agile =) ... treated the kids to the ginormous strawberries bought from cold storage over the weekend... clover simply loves it... she seems to know how to apreciate food unlike winter who tends to gobbles down whatever she is fed =p clover will slowly chew the food macham food tasting like that :) that's my gal!

alighted at eunos mrt on my way back, there was a getai gg on at that area... the performers were pretty entertaining with their hokkien jokes... frankly its my 1st time seeing and hearing a getai... like the hokkien jokes but not the songs hahaha...

SH is off to eastern europe wif his gf... he deserves this trip man, he has been working his ass off, i know cost i'm just sitting next to him :)
i have heard comments on wah he go travel again... the tone comes across as 'he-isnt-having-such-a-bad-time-afterall- at-the-workplace... HELLO! if you are not sitting beside him pls dont anyhow give that kind of assuming tone!! i get pissed off *libra trait* cos i find it unfair to him, esp if i witness the amt of prressue he goes through each day >=I

Wilbur needs a miracle cure!

darn, the vein near my spine is aching real bad :( went for a 30min neck, shoulder and back massage at this tcm place opp marine parade ntuc yest... the chinese sifu was bloodie good man, he knew exactly the spot that was hurting without even me telling, it hurt bad when he kept rubbing the spot but at the same time it felt therapeutic... wanted to go again today for a rub but wearing work clothes not exactly ideal for massage =p besides costly lor if go too often... i think when i'm old, i need a full time masseuse instead of domestic help hahaha.. turning bibik faster than i can say satay babi hahaah ...

after my dental appt yest, i walked to people's park food centre to eat my usual koo kee yong tau hoo, wanted to try the other stall yong tau foo stall which is famous and there was no queue but din know how to order so decided not too lest i kena scold by the stall owner haha... i'm a creature of habit esp when i'm alone :) ... like after each visit to NDC, i will always after that eat koo kee yong tau foo haha... anyway, coincidentally i met my dad at people's park, was actually making my way to meet my mum at plaza sing to pass her something... he was going to eat koo kee as well haha... strangely we both share the liking for koo kee... usu, my dad's taste in food differs very much from mine :)

dad recommended me to buy this barley leaves tea powder from those counters that sell jap snacks... they are located at places like taka, plaza sing, liang ct ... one month's supply cost $30... not really cheap but suppose to help in the general well-being, including constipation :p (yeah, apparently mum told him of my problem)... bought a pack yest... tastes ok, just hope that it will be able to perform miracles for my back but i guess i'm placing too much hopes on it *grins*... see really becoming a bibik lor... after buying an expensive product, really expect the product to work wonders else will just curse n swear hee hee...

my back is still aching... really annoying feeling... dont want to keep popping muscle relaxant or pain killers to ease the pain lest i get hooked on it...

oh yah, one of the highlights of yest was that i bought the bicycle tragic royalty playing cards! si bei cool leh, darkly whimsical... love it! there was even sweet pastel playing cards... damn nice colour and ideal for a gift for some girly gal fren :) think this 1st purchase might make me into a collector for playing cards... uh oh!!!

Wilbur's evidence for loving CSI

Father Powell: You don't believe?
Gil Grissom: In religion. I believe in God, in science, in Sunday supper. I don't believe in rules that tell me how I should live.
Father Powell: Even if they're handed down by God?
Gil Grissom: How many crusades were fought in the name of God? How many people died because of someone's religion?
Father Powell: Fanaticism, not religion.
Gil Grissom: Semantics. They're still dead.

Wilbur is super constipated >=I

gg for another root canal sugery tomorrow... darn! its not the fear of the dentist or the root canal itself but the stupid injection to numb the gums that freaks me out *heart thumping* ... aye...

had lunch with my 3 darlings (hubbie aka dragon boy, ah fat aka clover and pariah aka winter) at kenny rogers today... weather was crazily hot but we had to sit outside cos of the doggies... luckily the sparkling 100% grape juice managed to cool me down a bit :) btw, the chicken seems to have shrunk quite a bit but looking on the bright side at least its less calories lor... i try to look at the brighter side of things lately, guess its a bid to relieve stress... like when i know gg home each day i have to mop the kitchen floor, i tell myself at least i can keep fit at the same time... its not always easy esp when i'm really short and hot tempered but at least i'm trying =)

oh yah, came across my birthday profile on the net... here's an extract... there's more to this but doubt any of you would be interested in the full profile :)
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Your Personality Profile:
You possess a highly creative mind. You are likely quite good with language and/or languages, and you have an unmistakably goofy sense of humor. You have a wonderful sense of judgment. Although you will entertain some attraction to the mystical, you are largely logical. You can be a charming conversationalist, making each person you talk to one-on-one feel very special. Although you are capable of much hard work, leisure time is very important to you. You are more decisive than the typical Libra personality.

creative - witty - fair-minded

Sun Conjunct Merga
This fixed star has a Mercury/Saturn influence, giving you the gift of humor (generally sarcastic), writing ability, and a strong sense of right and wrong. You are logical and capable.
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erm, i know i can come across as being mean in my jokes sometimes, but cannot fault me lor cos i'm influence by my birthday star lalalalalala *innocent look*

damn getting heat rash all over my hands... always happen when i'm expose to the sun and pespire... cold shower doesnt help much... sianz, have to refrain from scratching...

these few days i have been really constipated, think one of these days i might just slip into a coma in the loo cos of the strength i have to exert... dragon kept nagging on and on and i have to take more fibre that i so much wanted to shove something down his throat... ask me to eat oats when our house dont have any lor and he kept repeating this like a spoiled record... but i stil dig him lah =)

clover is like so worn out after her outing to ecp, poor gal, not much appetite too... but she still had space for durian... wat is it with dogs and durians? they love the fruit so much... usu she is quite gentle when eating from my hands but when it is durians, she just like ki siao and start chewing my fingers as well *ouch*... its like a drug or something... but clover is stil my fav gal cos she looks so adorable, is loyal and kuai... winter on the other hand is the exact opposite and pisses me off most of the time, strangely winter's genitals dont seem apparent up to now ... we call her a gay dog hee hee and came up with moniker for her - winter gaylord focker (ben stiller's name in meet the parents hahaa) ... so apt for her lor...

Wilbur is still feeling a little under the weather =p

din haf the energy n time to blog the last week... was pretty exhausted n tired... been like having only like 4 hrs of sleep each day... u cld say that i asked for it lor... i mean i was like watching tv when i could have forced myself to turn in early... but i guess i hated the fact of gg to sleep not so long after i get home from work... its like so groundhog day lor and most importantly i want my ME time... i get home abt 8.30pm from work, after cleaning up after the doggies and feeding my pets, it will be like about 10pm... i will flip through my mags and watch tv at the same time (bloodie hell, even at home have to multi-task =p)... if i sleep at midnight means that i only have like 2hrs to myself for the freaking entire day... so depressing rite??!!

think carl's jr finally opened at the ECP... cos i got a job mailer in the mailbox *laughs*... i was toying with the idea that maybe i should work at carl's, at least its a break from all the heavy thinking stuff at work... and if i was assigned to work at the ecp branch it would be so cool lor... so near my place and can save on transport and be healthy at the same time (cos its like walking distance from my place) but my devil side of my brain still cant give up the pay tt i'm getting now... even dragon boy said that i wont be able to anyhow buy stuff *sighs*... i joked saying tt i will bring burgers home to feed the doggies lor hee hee...
when will my angel side finally have the voice to convince me to quit and look for a senang job tt has not so many responsibilites? *heavy sigh*

one of the days last week, for the 1st time in 10 or 11 yrs, i ate dinner with Mrs Chua at the 99 Food House near Funan... she is retiring soon and i'm really happy for her... i learnt that she loves kids and her nearly 2yr old grandson stays wif her, her son n daughter-in-law stays nearby but the kid stays wif grandma due to work and study commitments... she has a very capable and kwai indonesian maid of 2 yrs and her entire family and relatives all treat this maid v well lor... they give her hong baos and its not small sums wor... her daughter-in-law is super nice too! she gives the maid a pay rise every now and then! the maid is hardworking and actually request that her employer keeps her pay every month cos she doesnt need off days and besides, mrs chua's family bring her out when they go for outings lor and pay her meals etc... its a 2-way thing - giving and receiving kindness... the above is a perfect example =)

yest was suppose to go clubbing with YF and his 2 other frens but while nearing st james, i felt really sick and had to get down from priscilla's car quickly cos i was on the verge of throwing up... in the end i headed home but not without much drama...
i actually got down from the car at the main road divder, i had so much wanted to squat at the divider to calm my nerves as i was still feeling queasy but decided not too as i din want to draw attention to myself... after crossing over to vivo, i wanted to take a cab but the q was so long that it would shame the great wall of china lor... i just continue walking and taking deep breaths... eventually i decided to take a bus home (though i had to change bus) cos i was afraid that i would feel sick again if i set in a cab... i boarded the 2nd bus that goes directly to my place, i decided to sit in the upper deck and i sort of was snoozing... when i woke somewhere along meyer road i felt v sick n faint again and quickly made my exit from the bus though i wasnt too far off from my place's bus stop... the nauseous feeling was overwhelming so i decided to walk home instead... decided to sms SH while walking in bid to keep my mind off being sick (i was breaking out in cold sweat)... din sms dragon boy cos i din want him to worry... when i was near my estate my spirits lifted a little knowing that home sweet home was just round the corner *relief*... i did my usual while i got home i.e clean n feed precious pets and quickly headed for the couch afer for as i felt weak n giddy... still feeling aches all over today =(

SH was suprised tt i was gg for dinner and then clubbing with YF and 2 of his frens of which 1 i met but din know too well and the other i have never met before... he asked that wouldnt it be strange? i was also a little concern that i might be awkward but when i got into priscilla's car and tease YF a little, it sort of broke the ice, pris was not wat i had imagine her to be =) she is funky and hip, had expected her to be a demure, long-haired quiet gal, dont ask me y lah but thot that YF fren would be like that one... we had dinner at house at dempsey... pris is cool and loud... she speaks her mind... so different from TL and YF who is quiet type... its nice knowing pris... too bad couldnt join them for boiler room (read above story)... she wants to teach autistic kids *salutes* and have applied to MOE... she looks so funky more like the part of a club operations manager though..i couldnt have imagine she likes kids =) so really never be too quick to judge a person...

damn my neck and shoulder are aching again... gg to leave here soon ... some of you might know that i'm upset wif some pple at work but i dont wanna grouse it here as i dont want work to have a place in here... i rather focus on other thots and experience.. more thot provoking and less dull =)

gotta go now... feeling a like a vagabond cos din bathe since yest *lol*

Wilbur's series of unfortunate/suay events (yester)day >={

yest was one of those days where everything just seem to go wrong lor...
incident #1
found a small puddle on the floor near the fish tank stand... dammit, fish tank seemed to be leaking and but left it cause i had to leave for work...
incident #2
took a cab to work and the driver was an ah pek who drived so slowly, not to mention that his driving was much to be desired... recalling the ride now even brings back the sick feeling... when around city hall, he actually asked whether i wanted get off at excelsior cab stand!!! apparently, he din know that funan centre is the same as funan the it mall, and he din even know funan got taxi stand! he nearly made a wrong turn somemore! WTF! bloddie hell and the ride cost like $2 more lor *^&%^$^%$£^%$£..
incident #3
made my way to mcdonalds after the sick ride i had... planned to order mc griddles again but wanted it plain/kosong this time to cut back on the calories and also found it with the sausage and egg a bit too filling... the gal who took my order wasnt sure that i could order it plain and checked wif her male supervisor, she then punched in my order and i saw $3.85 on flashed across the cash register, i was like huh? kosong also cost so ex? she said she keyed in sausage mcgriddle and made it a special order of without sausage... *screams* i then changed my order to mcgriddle with sausage and egg which only cost $4.05... stupid stupid stupid... that reminds me, will most prob write in to macs to complain... no logic rite? i used to order plain mc muffin and it cost me like $1.50 only lor... dodo!
incident #4
when i saw rita at the counter when i came in, she said that waifeng and kelvin were not coming for the meeting later, only their sub contractor would come... i was boiling liao... the signages of which they had before hand assured quality was si bei poorly done!!! waste of our time and caused a lot of inconvenience! i had wanted them to come down personally and not deal with their contractor! mistakes time and time again even after communicating to them via the phone and email our expectations... arse holes lor... i was writing an irate email to kelvin and waifeng when kelvin called and explained why they were not able to come down... i voiced my displeasure to him and sounded v unfriendly... no more miss nice guy if you break my trust lor!
incident #5
my laptop hung not long after i logged in and i din open a whole lot of programs!! *&%^$%£$
incident #6
boarded an empty 36 on my way back from work. thot that i could get home quickly but bad jam on the ecp and the journey took an hr!!! i fell asleep on the bus and i woke up feeling weak, faint and nauseous... after a quick dinner at the hawker centre, made my way to the clinic... still feeling unwell today and din manage to go to work...
incident #7
was changing the fish to another tank when one of the idiot parrot fish bit my finger and made my skin tear!!! i kootie the fish when he was on the net out of the water... super pissed...
incident #8
quarrelled wif dragon boy on my feeling stressed and worn out...
incident #9
the soiled newsapaper i was clearing tore and my thumb dug into the a piece of the doggie shit U*^&%^%^%^$
incident #10
found 3 big pimples on my face...

cant blame me for being angry with the world yesterday =p super lousy thursday man

Wilbur takes a ride in the Silver Cab

it's cool that sbs came up with iris... knowing when the bus is coming helps me plan how to get to work in the fastest time possible esp when i always leave the house late =p ... of course sometimes there will b those days when i make the wrong decision and end up being late *shakes head* ... knowing that the buses will take a while to come, i decided to take a cab to work instead... was pretty lucky cos the taxi stand had a few cabs waiting and there was no queue which was pretty surprising considering today is a monday and everyone is always late and grabbing a cab on mondays *chuckles*
boarded a silver premier cab and though the journey wasnt exactly smooth cos uncle decided to brake hard a couple of times, i was impresssed with his seng mok-ness (astuteness)... he knew which lanes to take to avoid being stuck in the slow moving morning traffic and he did not compromise on safety as well... i managed to like get to office in 15 mins!!! steady pom pi pi i tell u... naturally i emailed a note of commendation to premier *proud look* ... being a libra, i v fair one hor will complain or commend, not like most pple who just complain...

i wasnt really late for work until i went to subway to grab a morning deli of ham and egg... wah lao, the person serving me was a bit slow lor and i was the only customer *slaps forehead* ... she did not know how to operate the cash register and use a calculator instead, which i was a bit amuse cos i only order 1 item and the cost was $3... i showed the 10% discount and she use the calculator to compute which is fine... when i gave her $4, she return change of $1.60... si bei blur leh, she lucky i honest and not blur, so i return her the excess change... geez...

Wilbur drink, drank but not drunk :)

fri was like packed wif activities back to back...
dinner at clarke quay (Italian place not worth mentioning cos of the high price and so-so food... shared ham pizza with lisa and eugenia... the ham was super miserable lor, very thinly sliced, its like one pig can top 10,000 pizzas *shakes head*... pizza huts or pasta mania's pizza can beat them hands down anytime!),

chilling out session at eM (met ivy there and joined her wif her frens for a while... ai qi was super nice, she blanja me a gin tonic and was pretty friendly... watched them play bridge... not too sure whether i offended ai qi though but it wasnt intentional =p ... i said something like MOS got lotsa brown pple without realising that ai qi was part brown... i really have nothing against brown pple really, just that those brown teens that go clubbing seem to be really loud and some obnoxious kind...) btw, some patrons at eM bring their dogs too, how cool is that?!
was nice hearing from eugenia and betsy that they like eM...

clubbing at zouk (wasnt in a state of 'high' though drank a bit... after trying gin tonic at eM, i really liked it but the rest hated it *shrugs* ... bourbon coke and vodka lime seems to be their thing but i hated it ...makes me feel like an alien to have different taste *grins*... we danced till like 4am though the music not that fantastic cos it more like techno??? strangely, though i was quite sane after the session, i got like a major headache the next day ... it wasnt until i drank the freaking expensive super sour lime drink at HK cafe tt the headache seem to go away)...

romance seems to be in the air for me this weekend *wide smile*... dragon boy has been pretty sweet and loving =)... little gestures such as putting his arm around my shoulder and patting my head really makes my day!!!

Wilbur's Wicked Thots >=)

moronic behaviour transcends all cultures races, sex... take a journey with me in a super packed sbs service no. 36 in the morning and you get to experience 1st hand what i mean... just this morning, a plus size lady had her whole body leaned against the pole in the packed bus leaving me little space to hold on to the pole... to make matters worse, the back of my hand got to feel her flab *puke puke puke*, later she decided to change the direction she was standing and my elbow was caught in a position that would kena her neh neh should the driver step hard on the brakes *disgusted look* ... actually most of my encounters with morons in buses are usu. women... for freaking sake, some of them use the bags slung over their shoulders to push their way through especially when they r alighting....aaarrrggghhhh... so uncouth lor ... dumb asses! really!

on a lighter note, these couple of days, i notice this chio babe in the bus that i'm taking... (no lah, my dormant lesbian alter ego is not taking over!), she is not the usual kind of pretty lah... she has small eyes, delicate features, flawless skin, rosy cheeks, slim bod, her hair was loosely tied bun-like but it was super neat, not a strand out of place she had that air of class too... to me, she look like she could be on the shanghai runway... she looked young too... the only minor flaw was her hand looked older than she was as it had veins popping out... her dressing was simple yet she added a touch of quirkiness but wearing a fluffy ring etc... dont get the wrong idea abt me... its just tt i like to observe and notice pple and things and if i see someone or something i consider pretty, i will look longer to appreciate it =) actually how many of you out there notice the surroundings around U on your way to work? i do that actually, cause each day i may chance upon something i have not noticed before, and each day, clouds take a different shape *smiles*

i thot of a quote a couple of days back and it goes something like this...
"the very essence of true friendship is BO (body odor)"
hahaha pun intended (hence the title of wicked thots)... but really if you think abt it, true friends will not avoid u if you suffer from BO, they will still stick by you and try to help you with the problem :) i'm frankly quite open to frankness from my close friends... i wont be offended especially if i know/sense that you mean well by telling me my flaws :)

by the way, i have been wanting to say this for the longest time... i know i sometimes i dont seem to make the effort to contact some of you but do know that i do think of you hor... to me friendships i have made are strong and is not base on how often we meet up but how we can just continue to chat like old times when we do meet up, without any awkwardness =) thats wat i have with most of you and i appreciate it! at my age, i have grown out of my immature school/teen days of petty fights hahahaha *grins*